Yes, I'm angry. What did you expect?
The thing that bothers me is that I have to make this so coded because so many fucking people read it, and I don't want to start a big fight. I just need to vent, and actually have people listen to it for once. And even if people don't read this, I at least feel like I've gotten it out there. SO. Here it is. And it's not just addressed to one person, just so you know. No one gets to feel singled out here, you all get to experience the joy that is Aaron annoyed.
So yes, I'm angry. You might think that I just want to be the center of attention all of the time, and perhaps it's true, but I feel like I deserved this one. And you know what? A lot of people agreed with me on that one.
Why is he allowed to do that, and I'm not? Why do I have to act differently? What happened to make me the one that gets shafted?
And who are you, anyway? You're not the same person anymore, and it makes me really sad. REALLY sad. Because it feels like there is only one important thing anymore, and maybe I'm greedy, but I wish that it was at least in some way connected to me. I've been at school for so long, I feel like I'm allowed to be a little greedy.
I wish you were the same, too. Sad can't even begin to describe how I feel about you. I love you so much.
I can't keep doing this. I can't live in two worlds, three worlds, four worlds. There are so many different versions of me out there and I can't keep being all of them. I have to act differently around everyone, or I feel like I'll be scrutinized for my behavior. Do you know what that feels like all the time? At least I know that there are some people in this world who I can always be myself around, no matter what. They are the people whom I live for right now. Not the rest of you.
So yes, I'm angry. You might think that I just want to be the center of attention all of the time, and perhaps it's true, but I feel like I deserved this one. And you know what? A lot of people agreed with me on that one.
Why is he allowed to do that, and I'm not? Why do I have to act differently? What happened to make me the one that gets shafted?
And who are you, anyway? You're not the same person anymore, and it makes me really sad. REALLY sad. Because it feels like there is only one important thing anymore, and maybe I'm greedy, but I wish that it was at least in some way connected to me. I've been at school for so long, I feel like I'm allowed to be a little greedy.
I wish you were the same, too. Sad can't even begin to describe how I feel about you. I love you so much.
I can't keep doing this. I can't live in two worlds, three worlds, four worlds. There are so many different versions of me out there and I can't keep being all of them. I have to act differently around everyone, or I feel like I'll be scrutinized for my behavior. Do you know what that feels like all the time? At least I know that there are some people in this world who I can always be myself around, no matter what. They are the people whom I live for right now. Not the rest of you.