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~!~Happy One Year Anniversary~!~
I know that you and I have had some pretty messed up arguements and that you and I have been through SO much.. but Bobby.. I just wanted you to know that I love you. No matter what I get myself into and the things I say to you.. ignore your calls.. hang out with people you dont like. I do love you and IM ALWYAS going to be here for you. I have made some pretty messed up choices and I wish I could take some back. Im sorry our year had to come to this but Bobby I want you to know that this has made us so much stronger. The reason I've doen the things I've done was at first to push you away. I wanted to be different or try new things. But I looked for them in the wrong places. MY friends have been there for me as well as yours. Even if they are girls and I think that they are against me because they want you. But bobby that isnt a matter of this. I love you and I really really wish that today goes well for us. I know that im not fair..hah..I can vouche myself on that one. I dont give you the same things I expect you for me. I want you to always be the one who does nothing and I get to do things.. damn that sounded really bad. I mean.........well I never knew what to say but this time I actually do. Remember the other day when we went to Kohls and it was just me and you.. hanging out. Well Bobby that day and then yesterday and just.. we were.. "us" again. And I miss that. more than you think that I have. I've always always alwyas cared and alwasys loved you. No matter what you do.
i m i s s t h e w a y t h i n g s u s e t o b e
and that will NEVER change..like most people tell me not to get into it again..but it's LOVE that keeps me hanging on. and you.. you'll alwyas be there.. right there.
"whatever you do, wherever you go, i will be right there waiting for you"
and it doesnt matter how many guys/girls are there for us..that just lets you know that you have people thatlove you and care about you. some people look at us ancd wonder why we still hang out bc we still act like we are together.. but i saw a difference.. and i saw what i was doing to you but just pushed it aside. i wanted to push you aside so maybe you'g get over me because i wanted to move on.. but you held on. and now that i see what all i've been putting you through.. putting us through..i've been holding on also. otherwise.......i would have been gone a long time ago.
someone once told me that we needed each other for "self dependence"..... well that person was right... and i love that girl to death. shes halped tremendously... and she knows it too.
Bobby I guess what im really, honestly trying to say..... is.Forgive me. and ( : im going to do this thing...the way LOVE should be done.And let you know the truth..that I love you..and i've always been here, even though, i never really wanted you to know.
Take these Hands..Never let Go..For this LoVe is all *we* need to show