WELL FOR I HAVE REALIZED SOMETHING THAT DOESNT SEEM RELIVANT BUT IT IS TO ME... I DO HAVE FRIENDS... AND *SOME* DO ACTUALLY LOVE/CARE FOR ME. THATS THE BEST THING I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TOO NOW.
CAITLYNN YOU HAVE OPENED MY EYES TO NEW THINGS ALSO, BECAUSE NOW EVEN THAT THE YOU HAVE MADE LIFE CHANGING DECISIONS.. NO ONE ELSE CAN SEEM TO MOVE ON... THAT JUST SHOWS THAT THE STATISTICS ARE RIGHT, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU THINK YOUR "DIFFERENT". THEY ARE SO STUCK ON BULLYING/SLANDERING OTHERS JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE AT ONE TIME WAS DOING THEY DO IT JUST BECAUSE BUT NOW ITS OVER...OVER, MEANING LET IT GO. BUT THE CANT. BEING MATURE IS ASKING WAY TOO MUCH....
THEY WOULD RATHER RIP MY WRISTBAND? HOW GAY! DAMN CUNTBAGS.
but there was more to that entry than that.. i dunno.. i just worry to much. im more worried about my family right now. THem thinking that I dont love them anymore.. eh.. i mean i know they know i love them but its just.. gahd i dunno.
but at the same time.. Bobby.. and my friends.. its so hard to find people who really care about you and then you throw it away when you find someone who shares the same interests with you and who makes you think so much different about the world. maybe thats where im wrong.. maybe i shoudlnt worry about this. :)
but i just have WAY to much on my mind.. things i prolly shouldnt even be worrying about right now. oh well.. thanks though for thinking about me.. and im not mad at you.. bc you asked bobby if i was. Im not I have no reason to be. :) LoVe Ya!
I think that me and Jake's 'love' has saved me because before...before him my life was shit, because my family really fucking sucks (excluding my sister). And I don't have close friends...
=/ i want to be your close friend. that my problem too.. i gave up 'close' friends when i got with bobby.. thats what happens when you love someone.. people get hurt.. i mean it wouldnt if you let it but sometimes you cant help it. i have friends and friends that i can talk to.. but not close friends like iuse to.. :( so i know how you feel Lorena
caitlynn.you are so right.when me and rueben first started dating.i had alot of close friends that loved me and i loved.but as mine and his realtionship started getting more serious i started pushing away from everybody.i never did anything with anyone but him.and if i didnt do anything with him i would sit at home and talk to him on the phone or wait for him to call.i stopped talking to my family.my grades slipped.it was so horrible.when we broke up the first time i was so depressed because we had been together for five months and by that time i had no friends to talk to because everyone stopped being my friend because i never talked to any of them.i couldnt talk to my family because i was so wrong to them before i felt bad if i was to go to them for help.i mean what are you supposed to do in stuff like that?no one likes a broken heart.it hurts.i know.ive experienced it many times.it sucks very badly.but everyone wants to be loved, but it takes you away from so much stuff you love.i played alot of sports beofre i met him but then he
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WELL FOR I HAVE REALIZED SOMETHING THAT DOESNT SEEM RELIVANT BUT IT IS TO ME... I DO HAVE FRIENDS... AND *SOME* DO ACTUALLY LOVE/CARE FOR ME. THATS THE BEST THING I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TOO NOW.
CAITLYNN YOU HAVE OPENED MY EYES TO NEW THINGS ALSO, BECAUSE NOW EVEN THAT THE YOU HAVE MADE LIFE CHANGING DECISIONS.. NO ONE ELSE CAN SEEM TO MOVE ON... THAT JUST SHOWS THAT THE STATISTICS ARE RIGHT, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU THINK YOUR "DIFFERENT". THEY ARE SO STUCK ON BULLYING/SLANDERING OTHERS JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE AT ONE TIME WAS DOING THEY DO IT JUST BECAUSE BUT NOW ITS OVER...OVER, MEANING LET IT GO. BUT THE CANT. BEING MATURE IS ASKING WAY TOO MUCH....
THEY WOULD RATHER RIP MY WRISTBAND? HOW GAY! DAMN CUNTBAGS.
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sorry bout that i got excited... ;)
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but there was more to that entry than that.. i dunno.. i just worry to much. im more worried about my family right now. THem thinking that I dont love them anymore.. eh.. i mean i know they know i love them but its just.. gahd i dunno.
but at the same time.. Bobby.. and my friends.. its so hard to find people who really care about you and then you throw it away when you find someone who shares the same interests with you and who makes you think so much different about the world. maybe thats where im wrong.. maybe i shoudlnt worry about this. :)
but i just have WAY to much on my mind.. things i prolly shouldnt even be worrying about right now. oh well.. thanks though for thinking about me.. and im not mad at you.. bc you asked bobby if i was. Im not I have no reason to be. :) LoVe Ya!
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<33 you!
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