the day the motivation died
so thats the way it is. she can't even tell me. i had to find out like this, huh? well i wish her luck. i have half a mind to confront her on it. but i'll let her own conscience determine her actions. right now im a mixing pot of depression, anger, and straight heart break. part of me wants to get on a plane right now, go back and kill this guy. another part of me wants to jump the wire with my rifle and let iraq end my anguish.
but mostly...
deep down...
i'm just numb.
see, i figured it would happen. i'm prone to things like this happening i guess. i just dont know why she led me on his long. she hasnt even told me yet. i wonder if she would actually let me wait till i almost get home and ruin my leave, just like last time and the time before? she is so sweet an inocent. but the more i think of it the more it hurts.
im gonna confront her.
but you know, i was wrong about one thing. this hurts even worse than last time.
but mostly...
deep down...
i'm just numb.
see, i figured it would happen. i'm prone to things like this happening i guess. i just dont know why she led me on his long. she hasnt even told me yet. i wonder if she would actually let me wait till i almost get home and ruin my leave, just like last time and the time before? she is so sweet an inocent. but the more i think of it the more it hurts.
im gonna confront her.
but you know, i was wrong about one thing. this hurts even worse than last time.