you shouldn't think what you are feeling

[canterbury]

i can get over it if you ignore me. i don't care if you act like you are too cool for me. it won't bother me if there are other people that you would rather spend your time with and so just give up on the entire year we have spent together. but if there is one thing that i cannot stand it is being lied to and made to feel like an idiot. i hate that i have been walking around for the past few weeks like a complete fool because some retarded people won't tell me what's going on. so if that means getting certain people out of my life, then it is done. i am moving into raintree with jen. no more linford, no more of her and that. i am done with stupid girl drama and done with feeling sad and invisible. i've realized that taking care of myself and making sure that i am okay is not a sin. i may have to hurt a person or two on the way there, but it's okay because i have realized that i can't make other people happy if i am not happy. and i want to make other people happy. change; it's a good thing.

stand up and cheer for kelsey finally making the right decisions and being assertive. i will not be played.