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death and rebirth are things that will never be new.

Jan 17, 2006 15:09

I had to admit that this black hair thing probably wasn't half as bad as I had made it out to be. I guess Veronica more or less surprised me with it. I had a hard enough time getting used to the fact that she now had black hair let alone my own hair, but I sort of felt relieved in a way with it. Like the hair color was a cover or a flush of who we ( Read more... )

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renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 00:42:11 UTC

"This is why we're heading for the other ocean. You'd go insane staying anywhere else." I smirked to him when he complained he was bored. Not like I'd do much better, but I could probably deal a little longer than he could with perpetual boredom. Logan bored had a tendency to do stupid things that drew attention, which was the last thing we needed right now. "Thanks...for carrying my stuff." I added as he put down the suitcases. "Anyway, we're nearly done with the continuous driving. And you have to admit, we've made a lot of progress since yesterday ( ... )

__keithmars__ January 18 2006, 01:08:39 UTC

I'm not quite sure that I knew the extent of worrying a parent could do for their child until yesterday. Until yesterday when I found out that Veronica had gone missing, soon after finding her car smashed in. You know, at first the worry had been more or less about her safety, but after finding out that she ran off with her boyfriend, who she happened to break laws with getting out of jail, that worry turned into both safety and sanity.

No, of course, that wasn't the kicker. I thought it was brilliant how she lied about knowing the involvement of the Fighting Fitzpatricks. That really took the cake.

I was down at the Sheriff's department when my cell phone began to ring. I glanced towards the display as it read Unknown Name, Unknown Number and I knew - I just knew - that Veronica was on the other end of that phone. She had taken all the untraceable phones.

Opening the cell, I shut my eyes tightly, "Hello?" I took a hard breath inwards (relief or tension, I don't know) as she gave me a Hi, Dad that seemed so intense and tiny at the ( ... )

renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 02:41:31 UTC

I dropped down heavily on the bed as I heard Lamb in the background, and then my dad attempt to convince the not-quite-that-clueless (not quite, but definitely close) sheriff that it was Mrs. Fennel and not me on the phone before he headed outside ( ... )

__keithmars__ January 18 2006, 03:13:53 UTC

I'm scared to death for her - and I know she's a smart girl, too smart for her own good, but I can't help being so angry with her just for going away like that. The sound of her voice gets to me. Veronica gets to me and I have to fight this feeling of being alone. It's different from her being overnight somewhere else to her being on the run - on the run with a... She's on the run with Logan and it kills me because I know that we could just prove this innocence and she wouldn't have to be on the run like this ( ... )

renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 03:44:53 UTC

"I know you do, Daddy." I reply softly, my voice still sounding far too child-like and shaky. I wanted so much for to be a problem that could be fixed like the ones I had when I was little. Nice and easy, curling up in Dad's lap and talking it out, and it'd be over. Everything instantly less stressful, less scary, just 'cause he was there to fix it. Yeah, I'd give the rest of my Berkeley money for that. "I'd rather be home, too, for the record...but like you said, we can't." I was doing so well at being the calm one out of Logan and I. The one that was completely sure everything was going to be fine. Then I hear my dad's voice and the cracks start to show. I was fighting so hard to keep from crying right now. It wasn't exactly working, but I was trying.

"Mexico's too close, too obvious. I told you that man doesn't actually know how to investigate anything." I said, why else would he have arrested Logan yesterday? "Mexico was never the plan." I didn't bother mentioning to my dad we didn't really have enough prep time for fake ( ... )

logan_echolls January 18 2006, 04:08:33 UTC

I'm sure talking to her dad wasn't in any way easy. Veronica was trying but she hadn't been able to hide the tears that have been building up in her eyes since she started to dial home. She shuts the disposable phone and lets it flop over onto the bed, beside her thigh. Despite how ready and able she seems to be able to do these things, I'm pretty sure that her dad is the one person who can really get to her like this. Because she wants to badly to be there with him ( ... )

renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 04:34:39 UTC

"He's angry, he's scared...terrified. Wants me to come home but knows I won't. I'm betting my car had him understandably freaked out before he even figured out I was gone." I said quietly, resting my head on his shoulder. I didn't have the energy to tell him I was okay right now. I wasn't. What good would it do to deny that right now? Where was I going to go to hide it ( ... )

logan_echolls January 18 2006, 05:01:43 UTC

I shifted my arm a little tighter around Veronica as she rested her head against my shoulder, the brush of her newly inky locks against my neck. I ran my fingers through her hair and pressed my lips tightly together as a few tears slipped down her cheeks. Though I could hear the tears thick in her voice, I only noticed the darker color appearing on my shirt - water stains ( ... )

renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 06:02:53 UTC

Logan pulls his arm around me, holding me closer as he ran his fingers though my hair gently, and I relax just slightly. Such simple actions, but he knew they'd make me feel better. Even if it was only a tiny bit right now. He was there for me, worried about me, loving me. Wasn't that's what's important? Not how effective or not the actions were ( ... )

logan_echolls January 18 2006, 07:10:36 UTC

I shut my eyes for a moment, feeling her relax just slightly against me as she told me the things that she both worried about and no longer needed to worry about. I knew she was going to worry about her father. Again, the actually loving family was a myth to me, but Veronica and her father seemed to prove me wrong every single time. It did exist.

Lamb not following us should seem like better news, but right now it doesn't even seem to matter. I worried about Veronica and Veronica worried about her dad. If I assumed her dad worried about me it'd be a vicious cycle, except I'm sure he wonders how I'm treating her. They didn't even really discussed why we were out here now.

"Well, how about when we go home and graduate you still go to Berkeley and he can worry about you there?" I offered lightly to her as I tugged us back to lay down on the bed more comfortably.

I wanted to say I'm sorry, I wanted to say Thank you and I wanted to say I love you, but none of the words would slip from my mouth. I hated to see her so upset with something ( ... )

renewedsoul_v January 18 2006, 07:30:44 UTC

"At least he'll know where I am and probably call me so much I'll want to throw my cell phone in the Pacific just to get 5 minutes peace." I pointed out, smiling softly as we shifted so we were laying on the bed rather than half sitting up.

"I'll be okay, I promise. I just... it's hard, hearing him that upset." I said. "I'll be okay." I repeated, lifting my head slightly and placing a soft kiss on his cheek. "I've got you here, right? I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be right now. Dad knows I'm safer here than at home. He even said it." I told him, letting out a breath. I wondered if Logan knew how much his being here helped me. How much his just holding me right now was the best thing he could possibly do.

"Logan? You don't have to feel guilty about any of this, okay? I don't want you sitting there beating yourself up because you've somehow screwed up my life in some big way. You haven't. School, Berkeley? They're not going anywhere." I insisted gently.

logan_echolls January 18 2006, 12:00:02 UTC

I realize that Veronica seriously believes that I'm in no way some guilty party, but the thing is that I kinda am. At the very least she had her life on hold for me. Really, who was the one you were investigating for? Where did that lead you, Veronica? Straight into the River Styx which is precisely why you have to be on the run too. Because of me they know who you are.

I seriously belief if anything happened to her it would be my fault at this point. I just don't tell her it.

Letting out a breath, I tried to laugh. "You really know how to intervene a pity party, don't you?" I asked her. I had my right to feel guilty no matter how much I assumed it was my fault and how much she assumed it wasn't. Even if guilty wasn't a feeling I wanted, I was going to feel it at this moment.

"You've got me here, V," I confirm. That's all that really needed to be discussed, wasn't it? She had me here and no matter what I felt it wasn't as if I wanted to/was going anywhere. I was here with her and I wouldn't choose to be anywhere else.

renewedsoul_v January 19 2006, 02:01:06 UTC

"Okay, sorry, it's just - let's say for the sake of argument that the Fighting Fitzpatricks didn't threaten me. Let's just pretend that I'm perfectly fine and Lamb's only arrested you, that that's the only thing that's wrong." I told him gently. I knew he had a right to mope if he really wanted to, but he should at least know where I'm coming from ( ... )

logan_echolls January 19 2006, 04:21:45 UTC

"How about for the sake of argument there shouldn't be any reason that you were in the same room with Neptune's first family of crime?" I countered. "That was my doing, pretty much. And what if I hadn't come in, Veronica? What if I actually... did what you told me to do and stuck around in the X-Terra while they more or less used your face as a tattoo drawing board ( ... )

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