thinking too much again.....
I know that I am not alone in this world, and that i have many close friends who care about me. Yet it is getting to be on my mind more and more that at the end of the long day I have no one to curl up next to, no one to comfort me when I just need to be held, or listen if I just need to talk about something so that I can think the situation out better. It seems to me that the guys that do do these things for me are just around to get what they want from me and then just up and vanish when something else walks by.
I know, bad choice in male friends. That is something I have been guilty of for most of my life. And even though I know it is an issue for me i seem to continue to do it. Even though the guys I'm interest in are not the same as the ones I used to hang around with. Tonight I feel as though they treat me the same.
Now I know not all of the men in my life treat me this way, but I wish I was able to find one I'm interest in that treated me as well as I treated them. Someone to hold me at night.
When the time comes, if it is to come, then it will. Untill then I just keep on with my life and pay attention to myself and learn to let people gat close to me lest I let the right one slip by with out me ever knowing it.
"Guard your heart from stone."
I know, bad choice in male friends. That is something I have been guilty of for most of my life. And even though I know it is an issue for me i seem to continue to do it. Even though the guys I'm interest in are not the same as the ones I used to hang around with. Tonight I feel as though they treat me the same.
Now I know not all of the men in my life treat me this way, but I wish I was able to find one I'm interest in that treated me as well as I treated them. Someone to hold me at night.
When the time comes, if it is to come, then it will. Untill then I just keep on with my life and pay attention to myself and learn to let people gat close to me lest I let the right one slip by with out me ever knowing it.
"Guard your heart from stone."