I miss her.

[cant_find_toto]

I love her, I really do. But there are some things I don't love. I don't like the way she treats people she doesn't know. She's closed-minded........she's changed so much since last year, shes gone from the wanna be punk to the wanna be ?bitch? there is no word to describe her anymore. I remember when she didn't give a shit about anything, how we could go for hours and barely speak to each other and still have a blast. Shes very controlling about eeeevvveeerrryyyttthhhiiiinnnnggg. Me, her boyfriend, most of her other friends, even her fucking favorite color. Its bad I know. I have talked to her about all this....and as much as I hate a lot of things about her there is still a little bit of the old her in her that I cannot let go. How can this happen...even though she's a bitch, and critizes mostly everything...I love her, even though sometimes I cannot stand her. I hope her flaws don't rub off on me, and I hope people don't think of her and I as the same person, not that I could really give of shit because most of the fuckwits are worse than she is. I want her back...the way she was in 9th grade, when she didn't worry about her hair or the mustard stain on her pants.....I want the old Emily back, forgive me if I sound selfesh..I don't mean to be. I miss Emily even though I see her everyday...but there is no way to get her back after the past year and everything that has happened theres no way she'll change, I just hope that she can stop being so god damn bitch all the time...sorry but I'm sick of hearing all the problems she has with her other friends, I honestly don't give a shit about her "other" friends, its her I care about.

School started today...it was....cold. good thing I brought a jacket. I saw familiar faces and was happy to see them, but I don't think they were as pleased as me. I'm dreading tomorrow........at least it will be friday.