(no subject)
Tonight was weird...I devored a whole plate of lasagna..it was good.
The company was good even though I stayed inside my room the enite time, a old married couple..they brought wine.
I lit my candles tonight..theres to many to count, in fact i'll count them now....I counted 105 candles..some of them i've never lit. feels like a sona in here, can't spell...at least it smells good, it doesn't smell like cigarettes and old food anymore.
I hope I get to go to that concert with Bri. The bands are Staind, 3 doors down and..uh..I forgot..oh well i'm only interested in Staind. September 10 woo hoo..better get tickets soon, or i'll end up in the grass..if I do go it will be the second concert i've ever been to, the one I went to before was 311...with emily...a long time ago.
I called Kasey tonight. It was weird. We talked for a while, about a lot of stuff. I feel so distant from my family and friends.
Tracy finally figured out that I you want me to wake up and get outta bed you open open the door and yell at me then leave, you have remove the covers from me and shake me till I bite you...then i'm awake..its also good to bring a cup of coffee.
I've been home for about two days now since I left for about a week, and I want to leave already....Yesterday Doug was leaving, even if he had to walk...Today him and my mom spoke, so he might be staying.
" I want you, all tattoed, I want you bad, complete me, mistreat me, want you to be bad bad bad bad bad."
" I want you, complicated, x-rated, I want you bad bad bad bad bad bad"
the moms taking me to get my permit this week sometime, like she was suppose to do 3 motns ago..finally. It will be nice when I get my license, then I will come and go as I please. I know it sounds girly and all..but I killed a bug today, and then it made me sad. some useless bug that I squished. I had to ask myself "If I was walking and some humongeuos cold monster came and squished me and then I was laying there taking my few last breathes and it pulled off my legs and left me to die, how would I feel" would I want revenge would I call on my bug friends and tell them to invade the mosters house and bite it while its sleeping. GOD what weird things I think about....it reminds me of the night at Kaitelyns, If you have had 2 1/2 kids you would be pregant for 2hours or years of your life. Weird fucked up shit that comes to my head and I can't help but share it with everyone.
god its fucking hot in my room I have to go outside to cool off. I don't mean to bitch but damn...liting and blowing out my candles is a job. I'am gonna go sit in the red cherry tree and when I cool off i'll come to bed.
The company was good even though I stayed inside my room the enite time, a old married couple..they brought wine.
I lit my candles tonight..theres to many to count, in fact i'll count them now....I counted 105 candles..some of them i've never lit. feels like a sona in here, can't spell...at least it smells good, it doesn't smell like cigarettes and old food anymore.
I hope I get to go to that concert with Bri. The bands are Staind, 3 doors down and..uh..I forgot..oh well i'm only interested in Staind. September 10 woo hoo..better get tickets soon, or i'll end up in the grass..if I do go it will be the second concert i've ever been to, the one I went to before was 311...with emily...a long time ago.
I called Kasey tonight. It was weird. We talked for a while, about a lot of stuff. I feel so distant from my family and friends.
Tracy finally figured out that I you want me to wake up and get outta bed you open open the door and yell at me then leave, you have remove the covers from me and shake me till I bite you...then i'm awake..its also good to bring a cup of coffee.
I've been home for about two days now since I left for about a week, and I want to leave already....Yesterday Doug was leaving, even if he had to walk...Today him and my mom spoke, so he might be staying.
" I want you, all tattoed, I want you bad, complete me, mistreat me, want you to be bad bad bad bad bad."
" I want you, complicated, x-rated, I want you bad bad bad bad bad bad"
the moms taking me to get my permit this week sometime, like she was suppose to do 3 motns ago..finally. It will be nice when I get my license, then I will come and go as I please. I know it sounds girly and all..but I killed a bug today, and then it made me sad. some useless bug that I squished. I had to ask myself "If I was walking and some humongeuos cold monster came and squished me and then I was laying there taking my few last breathes and it pulled off my legs and left me to die, how would I feel" would I want revenge would I call on my bug friends and tell them to invade the mosters house and bite it while its sleeping. GOD what weird things I think about....it reminds me of the night at Kaitelyns, If you have had 2 1/2 kids you would be pregant for 2hours or years of your life. Weird fucked up shit that comes to my head and I can't help but share it with everyone.
god its fucking hot in my room I have to go outside to cool off. I don't mean to bitch but damn...liting and blowing out my candles is a job. I'am gonna go sit in the red cherry tree and when I cool off i'll come to bed.