Pain
So another is getting married and it hurts so badly to know that I'm not the one that will make her happy for the rest of her life. I feel like a piece of me has died and it makes me kinda want to just go with it...My heart is broken and I'm not sure if it can be repaired so easily this time. I always wondered if I was meant to have happiness and I think the answer is no. Nothing ever seems to go right for me, it all seems to go horribly wrong and it makes me wonder why I actually do go on. Maybe I'm an emotional masochist and I like being hurt like this, I just don't know. Don't be worried if I just stop talking to people for awhile right now. I don't really want to deal with anyone and I think being alone will keep me from getting hurt so badly anymore.