bleh

[cannibelles]

Today has just been a shit day. I slept terribly, I've felt sickly, I had testing to do. I shouldn't still be at that school. I should have gotten my shit together graduated in May, I feel like such a failure. Things that have been on my mind for a while are starting to catch up with me and I'm just feeling really alone. I'm starting to feel like I'm not allowed to be upset by anything. That even the slightest bit of sadness I feel makes me weak and selfish. I'm tired of being known as a raging bitch. Truth be told I haven't acted any other way so I see where it comes from. One day I'll get the combination right. I've come a long way and I'm getting to the point where I feel like things should be shifting in my life, but they're not. Maybe I'm just being impatient? Maybe I'm just looking in the wrong damn places. I want to be so much more than I am. I know i've said this a million and one times and I'll probably say it a million and one more until I get it right.

Sorry for the emopost I just needed this off my chest.