:(
I want to ram my head into a goddamn wall.
It seems every year I have a fucking argument with my parents about my education.
Every year.
I am frustrated enough as it is fucking studying at Hunter College this fuckhole of a university.
And then my mom has to throw in "I don't think you know what you're doing, you should have just went back to Purchase."
..... I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE WENT BACK TO PURCHASE.
but it's too late now, isn't it? So don't fucking put that idea in my head.
It would have been so much better for me at Purchase because the language program there is far less demanding and most people that enter it aren't native speakers and the faculty understands that and caters to it. Unlike Hunter, where I'm looked at as a joke. I HATE COLLEGE.
I HATE COLLEGE I HATE MAKING DECISIONS AND I HATE HOW I CANT SEEM TO PICK THE RIGHT PATH IN MY LIFE.
Why do I keep fucking up? Why do I keep making the wrong decisions?????!??!!
Now, even if I wanted to transfer back to Purchase, I would be regarded as a fucking joke by my friends and family. Ohhh, look. Kristin's transferring again. For the 5th time. She sucks.
Even if I did transfer back to Purchase what's the point? No one that I know will even be there anymore and I'll be like that creepy older person who still lives on campus and no one knows why. Plus the tuition is more expensive there. Shit shit shit shit shit. I am suchhhh an IDIOT. Why didn't I just stay at Purchase??!?!? :( :( :(
I really wish I could rewind my life to December 2004, and this time not leave Purchase, and just change my major instead. I could have been DONE with school this semester. And now, I just suck instead.
I AM SO FRUSTRATED OAHLSJF:SLJFKSFSFSFKSFS:LFKJSFWEORIJSDf
I am so not happy with my life right now.
Sooooooo not happy. :/
It seems every year I have a fucking argument with my parents about my education.
Every year.
I am frustrated enough as it is fucking studying at Hunter College this fuckhole of a university.
And then my mom has to throw in "I don't think you know what you're doing, you should have just went back to Purchase."
..... I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE WENT BACK TO PURCHASE.
but it's too late now, isn't it? So don't fucking put that idea in my head.
It would have been so much better for me at Purchase because the language program there is far less demanding and most people that enter it aren't native speakers and the faculty understands that and caters to it. Unlike Hunter, where I'm looked at as a joke. I HATE COLLEGE.
I HATE COLLEGE I HATE MAKING DECISIONS AND I HATE HOW I CANT SEEM TO PICK THE RIGHT PATH IN MY LIFE.
Why do I keep fucking up? Why do I keep making the wrong decisions?????!??!!
Now, even if I wanted to transfer back to Purchase, I would be regarded as a fucking joke by my friends and family. Ohhh, look. Kristin's transferring again. For the 5th time. She sucks.
Even if I did transfer back to Purchase what's the point? No one that I know will even be there anymore and I'll be like that creepy older person who still lives on campus and no one knows why. Plus the tuition is more expensive there. Shit shit shit shit shit. I am suchhhh an IDIOT. Why didn't I just stay at Purchase??!?!? :( :( :(
I really wish I could rewind my life to December 2004, and this time not leave Purchase, and just change my major instead. I could have been DONE with school this semester. And now, I just suck instead.
I AM SO FRUSTRATED OAHLSJF:SLJFKSFSFSFKSFS:LFKJSFWEORIJSDf
I am so not happy with my life right now.
Sooooooo not happy. :/