soooo i'm pretty sure i haven't written since oh... forever? mmhm so here's to make up for everything....things have changed some for better some for worse. i've realized what i want and what i need right now and apparently that makes me immature but whatever i can deal ( Read more... )

i have something to say
but not now

ow! i bit my lip
when i was little i loved the bitter taste of blood so i would purposely bite my lips.... maybe i really am a vampire.

i'm happy with everything happy how things turn out in the end and i know that whatever will happen will ( Read more... )

it still stings.

i haven't written anymore because i'm sick of sounding so fucking emo, i've been getting annoyed with who i "am" lately.... oh god even that looks way too cliche. i dont want to whine anymore it's getting so old and it's depressing to think that since i'm not whining anymore i can't write about anything, maybe i'm just a shitty writer anyways. ( Read more... )

you're trapped all around me in memory and i'm crawling to the escape but i keep sounding the alarm that draws me back in. i can't lose sight of all the reminders following me with watchful eyes and expectant heart. the eyes that know what's behind mine and try to decipher what they mean. i try to push reminders into the cobwebs where they belong ( Read more... )

i'm a hero! i gave blood today.... yea it hurt i dont think i'm doing that again for a long time ( Read more... )

i love ( Read more... )

I wasn’t scared, I didn’t like it, that doesn’t always mean you’re scared. I grew up being ashamed of fear. Fear is ignorance and you my dear are not ignorant. I hate being accused of ignorance, it is the one most awful insult a person could lash out at me with. I’ll take every dirty word you have, I will be the scum of your earth, but don’t ever ( Read more... )

oh my god

i'm going to go die now.