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everything sucks right now. friday night sucked. i like wesley but i'm not going to get my hopes up because i know he doesn't like me. melissa hates me. i'm a loser. i'm a bad friend. i should die. nothing goes right for me. today is father's day. i hate it. i wish melissa would wake up. she's been sleeping forever. i don't want her to leave. she probably does. i don't get mad at her. the one time that she pissed me off was last night. and i saw in her eyes that i hurt her. i'm so fucking stupid. i wish i could take everything i ever did to her back. i wish i was never born. what the fuck is wrong with me? i'm just a stupid fucked up teenager. i can't do anything right. i want to cut but then i don't want to get lechured about stupid shit like i always do. boys suck. no one is right for me. everyone hates me. there's no point in trying anymore.
good bye...forever?
good bye...forever?