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caffeine pills, parental Lecturing, CHRISTMAS FUCKING EVE.
expoundation laterish.
[[edit:
yes sirree, i WAS awake at 5:30. yes sirree. and on Genuine Caffeine Pills ("vivatran" or something) by 6:30. because i'm that cool.
sleep is overrated.
seriously.
waking up early, going to bed late/not at all...more Gets Done. and at the end of the day, tired is relative...concrete Achievement is Less So. i'll get my 3 hours and you get your 9.25 and we'll just see.
cookies were made. macaroons, brownies, chocolate cookies, greek cookie #1 and 2...coolness. ish.
and now it's christmas eve and dinner was Eaten and Family is happening. we went to church and it turned out to be lame (vs. the usual coolness of midnight candlelight...my mother vetoed Osom) and, as lame as it sounds, i decided to try out that whole rose-tinted happy-satisfied inspirational-book make-the-best-of-everything Thingthing. my sister wore my clothes (i stifled my objections) and i told her she looked Good. and i let my brother sit in my seat (to which i am oddly attached) and i reassured my mother that the lameservice was okay (even though i was disappointed) and i didn't respond to my father's jibes.
not something i'm planning on doing on a regular basis. way too much effort. and kindness and such. but it was nice. for Christmas, loek--and everyone is happy, now, and i think (like to think) maybe i helped. within that whole silly Family thingthing.
christmas duets Played and presentlots under the tree and a paper crown from one of those cracker things. and Stuff was taped in the name of Christmas Videos (although i wish everyone wouldn't go so goddamn weird whenever i point a camera in their general direction. my brother makes faces and my sister tries to subtly fix her hair and my father tries to look relaxed and says the date and the occasion and deflects. trying. lame as fuck.)
back to jacks.
merry christmas, kids. be nice. tell people you love them. and Happy.]]
expoundation laterish.
[[edit:
yes sirree, i WAS awake at 5:30. yes sirree. and on Genuine Caffeine Pills ("vivatran" or something) by 6:30. because i'm that cool.
sleep is overrated.
seriously.
waking up early, going to bed late/not at all...more Gets Done. and at the end of the day, tired is relative...concrete Achievement is Less So. i'll get my 3 hours and you get your 9.25 and we'll just see.
cookies were made. macaroons, brownies, chocolate cookies, greek cookie #1 and 2...coolness. ish.
and now it's christmas eve and dinner was Eaten and Family is happening. we went to church and it turned out to be lame (vs. the usual coolness of midnight candlelight...my mother vetoed Osom) and, as lame as it sounds, i decided to try out that whole rose-tinted happy-satisfied inspirational-book make-the-best-of-everything Thingthing. my sister wore my clothes (i stifled my objections) and i told her she looked Good. and i let my brother sit in my seat (to which i am oddly attached) and i reassured my mother that the lameservice was okay (even though i was disappointed) and i didn't respond to my father's jibes.
not something i'm planning on doing on a regular basis. way too much effort. and kindness and such. but it was nice. for Christmas, loek--and everyone is happy, now, and i think (like to think) maybe i helped. within that whole silly Family thingthing.
christmas duets Played and presentlots under the tree and a paper crown from one of those cracker things. and Stuff was taped in the name of Christmas Videos (although i wish everyone wouldn't go so goddamn weird whenever i point a camera in their general direction. my brother makes faces and my sister tries to subtly fix her hair and my father tries to look relaxed and says the date and the occasion and deflects. trying. lame as fuck.)
back to jacks.
merry christmas, kids. be nice. tell people you love them. and Happy.]]