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Okay, so...
There's a lot going on right now- mostly silly drama.
BUT. I'm not sure I care enough about said drama to write about it.
Basically, I've been hearing that Shaun and his ex are buddy-buddy again, and he's changed a lot around in his facebook profile... things like, putting "her :) " in his activities, and "You're the only one who really makes me smile still." and things like that. So, I sent him a text message that said "I need to know if you're back with Nicki and I need to know now". He told me I was being ridiculous and wanted to know who said anything about it, and why such a random statement.... I told him he didn't need to know, and I just needed a yes or no answer....
Which, he didn't give me.
He said, he didn't answer to demands.
I asked, "Then what does the "her" in your profile mean, Shaun? Is it her or me?"
HE didn't answer that either- he's really good at skirting the issue at hand.
So, nothing got accomplished, we just yelled at each for a while.
Last night I got really drunk, and apparently he called me....
I don't really remember that.... except for when he said "So, I hear you made out with Steve White... that's pretty awesome, I guess."
And when he asked what I did last night- I said "I worked 5 hours, came home, got wasted and watched Team America."
He said, "By yourself?"
I said, "yes."
He said, "Well, in that case, tell Drew I said hi."
While yes, Drew was here, it wasn't really any of his business...
Which makes me a hypocrite for making such a scene about him hanging out with Nicki in her room.
I dunno, I feel like this just isn't the right time for things to happen between us.
Which... seems to be the theme of my life.
"The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing."
I'm just tired of waiting- it hurts now, waiting for him to make a decision.
I hurts thinking "Is he with her? Am I cuter than her? IS he going to date her again because she's smaller than me?"
I mean, it's stupid and belittling to myself.
I like myself.
I just want someone else to like myself, too.
I would love to have someone who's afraid to lose me.
Someone proud to be like, "OMG, you guys, this is my girlfriend- she's awesome."
Ohhhh wellll.
I'm gonna get a house and a puppy and a teaching job someday and be happy.
:)
anyway!
I have to pee- I drank like, 4 glasses of Mountain Dew at the SAI Christmas Party....
AND I need to study for PLS, so I'll go do that.... (boo finals!)
And probably call Shaun back- since he called me when I was on the way to the Christmas Party.... :-/
There's a lot going on right now- mostly silly drama.
BUT. I'm not sure I care enough about said drama to write about it.
Basically, I've been hearing that Shaun and his ex are buddy-buddy again, and he's changed a lot around in his facebook profile... things like, putting "her :) " in his activities, and "You're the only one who really makes me smile still." and things like that. So, I sent him a text message that said "I need to know if you're back with Nicki and I need to know now". He told me I was being ridiculous and wanted to know who said anything about it, and why such a random statement.... I told him he didn't need to know, and I just needed a yes or no answer....
Which, he didn't give me.
He said, he didn't answer to demands.
I asked, "Then what does the "her" in your profile mean, Shaun? Is it her or me?"
HE didn't answer that either- he's really good at skirting the issue at hand.
So, nothing got accomplished, we just yelled at each for a while.
Last night I got really drunk, and apparently he called me....
I don't really remember that.... except for when he said "So, I hear you made out with Steve White... that's pretty awesome, I guess."
And when he asked what I did last night- I said "I worked 5 hours, came home, got wasted and watched Team America."
He said, "By yourself?"
I said, "yes."
He said, "Well, in that case, tell Drew I said hi."
While yes, Drew was here, it wasn't really any of his business...
Which makes me a hypocrite for making such a scene about him hanging out with Nicki in her room.
I dunno, I feel like this just isn't the right time for things to happen between us.
Which... seems to be the theme of my life.
"The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing."
I'm just tired of waiting- it hurts now, waiting for him to make a decision.
I hurts thinking "Is he with her? Am I cuter than her? IS he going to date her again because she's smaller than me?"
I mean, it's stupid and belittling to myself.
I like myself.
I just want someone else to like myself, too.
I would love to have someone who's afraid to lose me.
Someone proud to be like, "OMG, you guys, this is my girlfriend- she's awesome."
Ohhhh wellll.
I'm gonna get a house and a puppy and a teaching job someday and be happy.
:)
anyway!
I have to pee- I drank like, 4 glasses of Mountain Dew at the SAI Christmas Party....
AND I need to study for PLS, so I'll go do that.... (boo finals!)
And probably call Shaun back- since he called me when I was on the way to the Christmas Party.... :-/