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alrighty so i've come to realize that i haven't updated in ages so here i am to update. yet again i have found that i am non existent i can not feel i can not think i can't anything, i've tried several times to feel something, hatred love UGH something but nothing comes to me, also i've tried writing but that doesn't do anything not singing not reading nothing. however i feel serenity when i look out my window and i see the most miraculous thing the trees are covered with snow and the sky is white for as far as the eye can see. it's a winter wonderland, something u might see in some gothic picture, ah utter beauty. meh i sound drippy and emotional and retarded, anywho so luckily i finally traumatized sam which i had been out to do for quite some time now i have finally gotten the last word also meh a lot of other good things, the best however being the phone conversation with don friday night, it was the best fucking thing that has happened in the last 4 years, i made more progress in those 3 hours than yea in the last 4 years, i feel like i've found the cure for cancer. well i don't really know what to write n e more aside from goddamn there's been too damn much drama in our world lately. well i'm off now.peace