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okay so yesterday was my bday. . . i got a lot of calls and it made me feel happy. . . then i talked to steven and that made me feel a lot better too. . . and he wanted me to ask my parents if i could go to 6flags with him. . . i knew they were gunna say no but instead of just saying no. . . my dad flipped out on me. by flipped out i mean. . . i was ungrounded but since i asked the question. . . i am now grounded again. . . and he started talkin about how "just bc i let u talk to him doesnt mean imma let u run off with him just yet. . . r u fuckin insane" and then i went outside to try to stay calm and he came after me. . . and he started yellin at me in front of all my neighbors. . . oh then i told him to fuck off and i didnt wanna hear it. . . and it was just a question and all he had to do was say no and i would have been like ight. so then we got in a huge arguement and it ended very badly. im grounded again! GRRR this sucks. i heard my parents argueing till like 12 last night. . . . my mom seems to think i am gunna kill myself. hmmm what an idea. she was doing most the talkin tellin my dad that he didnt give me any hope and he never has. . . and that all he does is crush all my dreams. . . and how he doesnt know how it is to be a "young woman" then he was talkin about the fact that i need to go to boarding school to fix my mouth and my attitude. but really my dad doesnt want me around guys. my mom seems to think that i am gunna go off and sleep with every guy i go out with from now on. some kind of support i have from my parents. what can u expect from people who havent ever been there for me when i needed them. why cant they see he is the only one i want to be with? then this morning my dad woke me up (after the fact that i went insane. . .) and he told me that "i dont have a problem with steven and that he liked him and he appreciates him tryin to stick by me. *blah blah blah* and maybe when u get ungrounded again ill let u go. . . completely".
wow that got kinda personal. so what.
why cant parents understand where teenagers are comming from? they just assume that everything is the same as it was in their day.
they dont know what they are gunna do with me. . . its kinda scary.
the second bday that has gone to hell because of my dad (drunken bastard!!!!) i wish it was just me and my mom. i was right my sweet 16 sucked mega ass. . . like all my bdays do. ::but i guess tiffany only knows what i am talkin about. . .::
::to the one i love:: I lOvE yOu!