I'm Right There If You Get Lonely
I had Pre-Op this morning and it went fairly well. Ugh, what really pisses me off is that you have to take a urine test for a PREGNANCY test and then you have to take another pregnancy test on the day of surgery. Um hello, I know if I'm having sex or not (which... lol, I'm not obviously) let alone if I was pregnant but its NECESARY. pfft, fuck that.
Taking blood went actually well, I didn't pass out and my arm didn't hurt afterwords either which was good.
My tennis meet today didn't go so well. I lost 1-9. I had a few chances, but I just couldn't complete but I hit this ace... i mean DAMN. I went beserk because it was just amazing, just amazing placement, great speed. That was great. But most of the time I was pissed off. I threw my racket, was screaming but for the most part I was under control... until like the 5th or 6th game, then I was just pissed.
Of course, Nick (he looked really good today. *dies*) and the head coach (let's call him T-Mon... short for T-Money, our nickname for him) were there watching the other match on the court (i went on last) and none of them even watched me ONCE. ONCE. With only TWO matches on the courts. Thanks a fucking lot you fucking dick sucking pricks. Nick went up to EVERYONE BUT me to help them with their matches and I just needed him just to be there for me or anything. But no, of course not. No one even saw my ace besides the girl I was playing against, my mom, and her mom. just sad.
I go to tennis for myself, every practice, every lap, every meet. It is for myself because I love to play tennis and I just love everything about it. But its just hurtful when you want help from a coach or just to even know they are there watching you and are cheering for you... I dont feel that at all. Its really painful. I just want someone to say "you did good" or just something, just to know they were actually watching and paying attention to ME for 5 fucking seconds. Its just painful. And if there is only two matches going on and two coaches, it makes sense for one coach to be watching one match. I told T-Mon my score and he said "its okay" and i just turned and walked away and said "its not." because you know what, its not okay. You didn't even see the match, why do you even care?
Nick said he was having a really bad week, the worst of his life, and if he yelled at us to not take it personal... I wouldn't have cared. Just to see him, any of the coaches acknowledge my existance and my game... it would have meant alot to me.
It just really hurt my feelings alot but you know what, I'm not there for them, I am there for myself.
I mean hey, I did EVERYTHING to get one of the coaches attention but they didn't care. so you know what, fuck it.
I hope tennis practice goes well tommarow... I just feel really upset with myself right now but just more so with them.
and on that note, heres one of those tag it things...
1) List 5 celebrities you would have sex with, without even asking questions.
2) Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them.
3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
4) Supply photos for said people.
5) Tag five people. (I tag anyone that feels like doing it)
NOTE: this was REALLY hard for me to narrow down (I dont mean that to sound like a slut!! XD) so uh... yeah. xD Damn I sound like a whore!!!
1. Nick, The Infamous Hot Tennis Coach. I don't care if you don't know him (you should "know" him well enough by my entries xD) I wasn't really hooked when I first met him. I thought he was okay when I met him, I didn't even think he was hot, he was just there. I was hooked when he had laryngitis and had to whisper when he was alone with the JV girls for practice and these two ex-teammates came to give us snacks and one was REALLY mean to him and was just totally bitching him out because he wanted us to practice and run laps before we had the snacks but she said no and we all just walked away from him and the girl was throwing shit at him... and afterwords hes like in his poor little whispery voice "...i really don't like that girl..." and the girl drives by and flips him off and screams "fuck you!!" yeah. I was in love. xD I love his husky voice and his one handed backhand. ;) and he has gorgeous blue eyes and I like when he wears his really orange sunglasses. I think its really sexy when he yells at us... xDDD I AM A SICK PERSON.
Oh...
DID I MENTION HE HAS A TONGUE RING!? 'NUFF SAID.
2. JJ Hardy - I found out about him by watching Brewer games of course. He is just very gorgeous and just very geniune. And I think he's dead sexy in longsleeved shirts. :P
3. Rex Grossman - GUH. I found out about him by watching Bears games and well. I was in love instantly. The interceptions, the fumbles, it means nothing to me. I have 100% confidence in him and well. I don't care what anyone else says.
4. David Eckstein - I first found out about him by just watching TV and brewer games and then I read a fan fiction about him and just wanted to know more. I love that he is only 5'7. I am mainly attracted to taller guys, but hes just a cute little short guy I could boss around. He's just very good looking and seems like a really nice guy.
5. Elisha Manning - GUHHH. I found out about him after the 2006 Superbowl and I just fell in love. I adore him. x3
(I dont have a picture of Nick)
Taking blood went actually well, I didn't pass out and my arm didn't hurt afterwords either which was good.
My tennis meet today didn't go so well. I lost 1-9. I had a few chances, but I just couldn't complete but I hit this ace... i mean DAMN. I went beserk because it was just amazing, just amazing placement, great speed. That was great. But most of the time I was pissed off. I threw my racket, was screaming but for the most part I was under control... until like the 5th or 6th game, then I was just pissed.
Of course, Nick (he looked really good today. *dies*) and the head coach (let's call him T-Mon... short for T-Money, our nickname for him) were there watching the other match on the court (i went on last) and none of them even watched me ONCE. ONCE. With only TWO matches on the courts. Thanks a fucking lot you fucking dick sucking pricks. Nick went up to EVERYONE BUT me to help them with their matches and I just needed him just to be there for me or anything. But no, of course not. No one even saw my ace besides the girl I was playing against, my mom, and her mom. just sad.
I go to tennis for myself, every practice, every lap, every meet. It is for myself because I love to play tennis and I just love everything about it. But its just hurtful when you want help from a coach or just to even know they are there watching you and are cheering for you... I dont feel that at all. Its really painful. I just want someone to say "you did good" or just something, just to know they were actually watching and paying attention to ME for 5 fucking seconds. Its just painful. And if there is only two matches going on and two coaches, it makes sense for one coach to be watching one match. I told T-Mon my score and he said "its okay" and i just turned and walked away and said "its not." because you know what, its not okay. You didn't even see the match, why do you even care?
Nick said he was having a really bad week, the worst of his life, and if he yelled at us to not take it personal... I wouldn't have cared. Just to see him, any of the coaches acknowledge my existance and my game... it would have meant alot to me.
It just really hurt my feelings alot but you know what, I'm not there for them, I am there for myself.
I mean hey, I did EVERYTHING to get one of the coaches attention but they didn't care. so you know what, fuck it.
I hope tennis practice goes well tommarow... I just feel really upset with myself right now but just more so with them.
and on that note, heres one of those tag it things...
1) List 5 celebrities you would have sex with, without even asking questions.
2) Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them.
3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
4) Supply photos for said people.
5) Tag five people. (I tag anyone that feels like doing it)
NOTE: this was REALLY hard for me to narrow down (I dont mean that to sound like a slut!! XD) so uh... yeah. xD Damn I sound like a whore!!!
1. Nick, The Infamous Hot Tennis Coach. I don't care if you don't know him (you should "know" him well enough by my entries xD) I wasn't really hooked when I first met him. I thought he was okay when I met him, I didn't even think he was hot, he was just there. I was hooked when he had laryngitis and had to whisper when he was alone with the JV girls for practice and these two ex-teammates came to give us snacks and one was REALLY mean to him and was just totally bitching him out because he wanted us to practice and run laps before we had the snacks but she said no and we all just walked away from him and the girl was throwing shit at him... and afterwords hes like in his poor little whispery voice "...i really don't like that girl..." and the girl drives by and flips him off and screams "fuck you!!" yeah. I was in love. xD I love his husky voice and his one handed backhand. ;) and he has gorgeous blue eyes and I like when he wears his really orange sunglasses. I think its really sexy when he yells at us... xDDD I AM A SICK PERSON.
Oh...
DID I MENTION HE HAS A TONGUE RING!? 'NUFF SAID.
2. JJ Hardy - I found out about him by watching Brewer games of course. He is just very gorgeous and just very geniune. And I think he's dead sexy in longsleeved shirts. :P
3. Rex Grossman - GUH. I found out about him by watching Bears games and well. I was in love instantly. The interceptions, the fumbles, it means nothing to me. I have 100% confidence in him and well. I don't care what anyone else says.
4. David Eckstein - I first found out about him by just watching TV and brewer games and then I read a fan fiction about him and just wanted to know more. I love that he is only 5'7. I am mainly attracted to taller guys, but hes just a cute little short guy I could boss around. He's just very good looking and seems like a really nice guy.
5. Elisha Manning - GUHHH. I found out about him after the 2006 Superbowl and I just fell in love. I adore him. x3
(I dont have a picture of Nick)