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Reasons why I'm not fond of life right now-
1.) I already sound fucking emo and it is like 15 words into the entry
2.) The computer is fucking spinning
3.) I have been living off of rice crispies, crackers, and gatorade for the last three days
4.) I can't stand longer than 15 minutes at a time
5.) I have to stand for a three hour lab tommorow
6.) I missed my chem test since I can't walk anywhere
7.) I haven't been to lectures in a week since I can't walk anywhere
8.) I'm really tired and acting completely pathetic
9.) I was an ass and got Joe really pissed at me
10.) I have no idea what to do about the Joe sitution. I really like him and want to be with him but at the same time i'm scared of everything and and the same time i don't want to be dramatic, and at the same time I feel like I've already permently messed something up between us and wish that would just go away on the basis that I was really sick when i fucked things up and at the same time i'm not sure if the sickness is all to blame or if I will do it again because I'm just a mess. All the while I dont' want to worrya bout this and keep considering if it wouldn't be better if i just got rid of joe and jus forced myself to forget about the whole thing altogether out of convience, but then at the same time I know it could never be that easy and all the problems just keep playing thorugh my mind again like a broken record.
11.) I really really sound like an emo kid and I can't help it. I blame the meds
12.) I have to choose between drowsiness and nausea depending on whether or not i take the meds.
13.) I still don't have my lab questions and scheme written for tommorow. Reading for longer than an hour makes me really ill again.
14.) I haven't been to the gym since like Sunday and I feel like I've gained ten pounds because of it
15.) I have to think of a fun lie to tell the people at the infirmary as to why my arm is scratched up
16.) I dont' think the infirmary even cares about me since they said i had a virus and just told me not to eat anything for about two days. They also prescribed gatorade to everyone there. Genital herpes? Gatorade will fix that up. Stupid UF
17.) I found out that getting drunk with your Best friend is really bad when he is your ex-boyfriend who apparently needs to get laid. And if you are being nice it is your fault what he does to you.
18.) I had a 7-10 page story due tonight that is barely started.
19.) The teacher that it is due to won't answer my e-mails. All three of them.
20.) I can't do any assignment for that teacher since it involves massive amounts of reading.
21.) I'm probably going to fail creative writing and not get to go to England next year.
22.) I missed the debate meeting and the first competiton is in a month and I don't even know what type of IE event i want to do
23.) I'm pretty much distant will my floor mates since they are girls. I get random people most of the day knocking on my door asking for Erika. It is like being back in middle school.
24.) I have a fucking B in my Psych class even though I study for hours for that class. Almost all of the other students have A's.
25.) I can't sleep.
Okay. I have basically ranted about everything in my life right now. Surprisingly i feel a little better. Of course when I am not sick anymore I will look back at this list and want to hang myself for being so whiny, but for now I am sick, tired, and really fucked up so i'm going to be emo for a while. Forgive me. Or ignore me, whatever. I don't care. NO one is making you read this! Screw you bastards!
Wow I'm yelling at no one now.
Do they have color requests on straight jackets nowadays?
1.) I already sound fucking emo and it is like 15 words into the entry
2.) The computer is fucking spinning
3.) I have been living off of rice crispies, crackers, and gatorade for the last three days
4.) I can't stand longer than 15 minutes at a time
5.) I have to stand for a three hour lab tommorow
6.) I missed my chem test since I can't walk anywhere
7.) I haven't been to lectures in a week since I can't walk anywhere
8.) I'm really tired and acting completely pathetic
9.) I was an ass and got Joe really pissed at me
10.) I have no idea what to do about the Joe sitution. I really like him and want to be with him but at the same time i'm scared of everything and and the same time i don't want to be dramatic, and at the same time I feel like I've already permently messed something up between us and wish that would just go away on the basis that I was really sick when i fucked things up and at the same time i'm not sure if the sickness is all to blame or if I will do it again because I'm just a mess. All the while I dont' want to worrya bout this and keep considering if it wouldn't be better if i just got rid of joe and jus forced myself to forget about the whole thing altogether out of convience, but then at the same time I know it could never be that easy and all the problems just keep playing thorugh my mind again like a broken record.
11.) I really really sound like an emo kid and I can't help it. I blame the meds
12.) I have to choose between drowsiness and nausea depending on whether or not i take the meds.
13.) I still don't have my lab questions and scheme written for tommorow. Reading for longer than an hour makes me really ill again.
14.) I haven't been to the gym since like Sunday and I feel like I've gained ten pounds because of it
15.) I have to think of a fun lie to tell the people at the infirmary as to why my arm is scratched up
16.) I dont' think the infirmary even cares about me since they said i had a virus and just told me not to eat anything for about two days. They also prescribed gatorade to everyone there. Genital herpes? Gatorade will fix that up. Stupid UF
17.) I found out that getting drunk with your Best friend is really bad when he is your ex-boyfriend who apparently needs to get laid. And if you are being nice it is your fault what he does to you.
18.) I had a 7-10 page story due tonight that is barely started.
19.) The teacher that it is due to won't answer my e-mails. All three of them.
20.) I can't do any assignment for that teacher since it involves massive amounts of reading.
21.) I'm probably going to fail creative writing and not get to go to England next year.
22.) I missed the debate meeting and the first competiton is in a month and I don't even know what type of IE event i want to do
23.) I'm pretty much distant will my floor mates since they are girls. I get random people most of the day knocking on my door asking for Erika. It is like being back in middle school.
24.) I have a fucking B in my Psych class even though I study for hours for that class. Almost all of the other students have A's.
25.) I can't sleep.
Okay. I have basically ranted about everything in my life right now. Surprisingly i feel a little better. Of course when I am not sick anymore I will look back at this list and want to hang myself for being so whiny, but for now I am sick, tired, and really fucked up so i'm going to be emo for a while. Forgive me. Or ignore me, whatever. I don't care. NO one is making you read this! Screw you bastards!
Wow I'm yelling at no one now.
Do they have color requests on straight jackets nowadays?