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well its been a really long time since ive updated. so here goes nothing. what has happened lately? hmm. well ive figured out that i do have a new infatuation. his name is josh. he goes to my school and hes a year younger than me. whats akward is he is paulines brothers best friend. i met him through mattd. we talk a lot on msn, but not so much at school. i think its easier to talk on msn. lmfao. he's sooo cute. and he loves me, lmfao i wish. hmm, what else. well im sure everyone has read or knows about the death of micheal kim. i didnt know him but his passing has made me realize that life is short and that you never know what can happen. well, i was asked by sinead to go with her to his funeral today. i was down, but i needed to ask my father. who, said no......jerk! lmfao. he said i miss too much school. which i do. im not going to lie. and speaking of school, im basically fucked for tomorrow. i was in first period in the computer lab and i was planning on going to second. just then my second period teacher came in the lab, i was all like "sick i dont need to walk anywhere". so i take my bag off and i walk to the door to see who was late. then i see nathan turner. hes like "hey, wanna come blaze a sliff right now?" and i was all like, "fuck, class or a spliff" and considering i havent blazed in 9 days i was like fuck it, im going. so i was like to my teacher "can i go to the washroom?" and shes like "okay be quick" and i never went back. and before i saw turner i saw my third period teacher. aparently he said to allana and them "i love how she can find her way to second but cant seem to get to third" lmfao. but yeah, back to second. i forgot my bag in class. i was all liek FUCK MY BAG! then at lunch i went to go get it and it wasnt in the class room. so i wwent outside thinking im fucked. then i see victoria crossing the street so i went up to her to ask her who took my bag and she told me what happened. she told me that she was about to pick up my bag and then the teacher was like "whos bag is that?" and victoria said "candice's" and the teacher was like "where is she anyways?" and victoria said "idk, i saw her in the washroom and she said she wasnt feeling good" and the teachers like "thats weird, cause i saw her before class and she was fine" so idk what to do. and my eyes were red liek alll fucking dayyyy. so i think im either going to not go to school tomorrow ORRRRR say that i got in an argument with my dad and i started to cry and i didnt want to go to class crying cause i didnt want people to ask questions. but if i do that then i think she'll send me or recomend me seeing mr farah. its not like i dont liek talking to him but every freaking time i go and talk to him i end up fucking crying. i hate it. and its not like im going to really open up to him anyways. if i talk about my smoking pot and drinking and shit they tell my teachers and then the teachers keep a closer eye on me. so fuck that shit. i think im going to just not go to school tomorrow. and be all liek "fuck that shit niggah" but idk what to say to my faja to stay homeee.... FUCK. what should i say? ermm. fuck ill think of an excuse after. well idk what else to write. but if i think of something then ill add it