wow, I love jen
Tonight I realised that my past is effecting jen and I. I told her that in my past I hunted, and she didnt like that. SO now I contemplate how I really feel about killing things. To be honest I dont like it at all, The Deer look so inocent, and yes I get those feelings of noooooooooo I cant kill this, but With my father there, and the feeling of my family depending on me to get meat, made me kill my one and only deer I have ever killed. So jen I just want you to know that , that is what I did, I am not proud of it, and I also want you to know that I love you and you mean a hell of a lot more then hunting does. so I wont ever do it again. I dont want to do it either. OK well I love you all, and peace out.