Wicked and Divine
A few posts ago I cursed myself at being a coward. The reason for that is Crush now has a girlfriend. I was too late. I just found the courage and he found someone else. I had met her previously, so my thoughts on her were already solidified before this happened. She is a nice girl, just not someone I would choose to hang with.
He moved in with her and they started dating shortly afterwards. They were living on the other side of town, but recently moved back down the road from me.
We went to the movies and she came with. I didn't know she was coming along and as I saw her, I was a little worried on how it would be. As odd as it sounds, she ended up being the third wheel. We had dinner later and I tried to find a subject of common interest and everything I tried excluded her that little more. Crush and I have this strange dynamic and synchronicity that flows from us. I ended up feeling really bad for her.
Crush and I hung out for most of this weekend. Pool is usually our thing - just us two. So that was Friday night. I was a little surprised that she didn't come with us to the movies on Sunday though. Admittedly, it was an action type movie, which doesn't really seem like her thing. I was even more surprised to get a call a couple hours later from him asking to go play some pool with him that evening. I was even more surprised when he suggested that I leave my car at the pool hall and we go have some drinks for the rest of the night. I declined on the last. I was a little confused as to why he didn't seem to want to go home. That last suggestion just sounded like good way of becomming a villian in her eyes. I don't want to become the friend he is banned to see.
I decided a while ago that what I wanted was to get drunk for my birthday with some friends. I would of had the venue be my place if it wasn't so small. Coffee Boy and his flatmate agreed to let me have it at their place. It was to be a fairly small gathering of about 10 people, order in pizzas and BYO drinks. Coffee Boy's flatmate has gone a little more extravagant and has insisted that there is proper catering.
I had already invited Crush before he got the new girlfriend, as I was hoping that a little alcohol might give me that extra courage to take the next step with him. Not only is that out the window, I have the unfortunate dilema that she'll most likely come along too. I can't exactly tell him she can't come, but I can't see her being that comfortable around my friends either (the subjects I brought up to make conversation with her proved this). It'll be interesting. Thank goodness I'll be drunk.
He moved in with her and they started dating shortly afterwards. They were living on the other side of town, but recently moved back down the road from me.
We went to the movies and she came with. I didn't know she was coming along and as I saw her, I was a little worried on how it would be. As odd as it sounds, she ended up being the third wheel. We had dinner later and I tried to find a subject of common interest and everything I tried excluded her that little more. Crush and I have this strange dynamic and synchronicity that flows from us. I ended up feeling really bad for her.
Crush and I hung out for most of this weekend. Pool is usually our thing - just us two. So that was Friday night. I was a little surprised that she didn't come with us to the movies on Sunday though. Admittedly, it was an action type movie, which doesn't really seem like her thing. I was even more surprised to get a call a couple hours later from him asking to go play some pool with him that evening. I was even more surprised when he suggested that I leave my car at the pool hall and we go have some drinks for the rest of the night. I declined on the last. I was a little confused as to why he didn't seem to want to go home. That last suggestion just sounded like good way of becomming a villian in her eyes. I don't want to become the friend he is banned to see.
I decided a while ago that what I wanted was to get drunk for my birthday with some friends. I would of had the venue be my place if it wasn't so small. Coffee Boy and his flatmate agreed to let me have it at their place. It was to be a fairly small gathering of about 10 people, order in pizzas and BYO drinks. Coffee Boy's flatmate has gone a little more extravagant and has insisted that there is proper catering.
I had already invited Crush before he got the new girlfriend, as I was hoping that a little alcohol might give me that extra courage to take the next step with him. Not only is that out the window, I have the unfortunate dilema that she'll most likely come along too. I can't exactly tell him she can't come, but I can't see her being that comfortable around my friends either (the subjects I brought up to make conversation with her proved this). It'll be interesting. Thank goodness I'll be drunk.