Lightbulb Moments - and then it blows
It is though the veil covering my sub-conscience has flown away and I have been seeing things with such clarity of late, it is freaky.
Ever had a niggling question that has haunted you about some random situation or person or place, but you couldn't figure out what the answer is? All of a sudden, you are talking about it and as you are saying it, the answer just follows out of your mouth without thought. Instantly you know it is pure truth and wonder how you didn't recognise it before.
In regards to people, that feeling you get that there is just something that doesn't sit well with you, but you can't figure out what or why. Or the sense of familiarity of a situation or place, but you don't know how. It's the answers to those things that are shooting out of me like lightning bolts.
I wish that clarity was present in other facets of my life though. There is one situation that baffles me at every turn. There is such a thick wall of confusion and misunderstood signals manifesting it is nearly morphing into a tangible object. I have been here before, but not too this extreme. The past tells me that it is only going to get worse. The cards tell me that it is me who has to defuse it. My fear from past experiences has me planted in refusal to do so. I see myself as a third person when the act is playing out and I want to slap me.
Words and manners just so contradictory. Words and names, so beautiful and encouraging. A motion of closeness, embrace thwarted. Uncanny symmetry. It's just all too much.
Ever had a niggling question that has haunted you about some random situation or person or place, but you couldn't figure out what the answer is? All of a sudden, you are talking about it and as you are saying it, the answer just follows out of your mouth without thought. Instantly you know it is pure truth and wonder how you didn't recognise it before.
In regards to people, that feeling you get that there is just something that doesn't sit well with you, but you can't figure out what or why. Or the sense of familiarity of a situation or place, but you don't know how. It's the answers to those things that are shooting out of me like lightning bolts.
I wish that clarity was present in other facets of my life though. There is one situation that baffles me at every turn. There is such a thick wall of confusion and misunderstood signals manifesting it is nearly morphing into a tangible object. I have been here before, but not too this extreme. The past tells me that it is only going to get worse. The cards tell me that it is me who has to defuse it. My fear from past experiences has me planted in refusal to do so. I see myself as a third person when the act is playing out and I want to slap me.
Words and manners just so contradictory. Words and names, so beautiful and encouraging. A motion of closeness, embrace thwarted. Uncanny symmetry. It's just all too much.