2 years!!
My re-birth day is tomorrow.
2 years ago, on August 1st, I went into surgery and had the cancer removed from my body. What followed was Hell, in the most literal sense. Anyone who has ever been through chemotherapy will understand that statement.
But, it's been two years and I'm still alive!!!!
Most cancer projections are based on a 5 year model. I'm 2/5 of the way there. Does that mean in another 3 years, I will be able to finally Breathe Easy? I don't know, but I do know I'm going to through one hell of a party if I make it that long!!
Two years ago today, I was prepping for surgery, filling out paperwork, pre-registering at the hospital, and doing everything one normally does the day before life-changing surgery. I was praying for clean margins and clinging to my little pink teddy bear named Pearl and my Mother Goddess crystal.
Today...
I am trying to maintain the Drama Free zone around my house and trying to do what is best for my family and my grandson. I have bought a Buell Blast motorcycle and I'm riding every chance I get. I'm living each day as if it was a precious gift, which it is.
How have I changed? I've learned Life is more precious than most people think. I am not taking anything for granted. Every day that I wake up is a Gift.
I've learned that most Stuff is Petty... and I've learned to not sweat the petty things (and, if I had a sweaty thing to pet, I'd be doing that, too!!) ;-)
I have learned that life is too short to be unhappy. I am doing my best to Do all the things I want to do and Be all the things I want to be. I am trying to experience Life instead of just passively watching it go by.
Life used to consist of Duties and Responsibilities. I only had fun when there was Time.
Now, I'm realizing that those duties and responsibilities are mere fleeting things and I do have all the Time I need to have Fun and enjoy life. That doesn't mean I am shirking my responsibilities. It means they no longer hold all of my attention and certainly a lot less of my stress. I have a more relaxed attitude now. Everything that needs to get done will get done. Everything else, well.. does it really truly matter that the bed isn't made or the dishes haven't been done?
I go to work. I do what I need to, then I come home and leave work at work. I don't have the time or desire to worry about work outside my workplace.
I've become more "hard" in regards to other people's Drama. I will listen with a sympathetic ear and will offer to help if I can, but I've learned to figure out who owns the problem before I try to solve it. If it's not my problem, then finding the solution is not my job. I have enough of my own problems to solve without having to stress over other people's problems.
All in all, I can say 2 years later, it's Good to be Alive!
2 years ago, on August 1st, I went into surgery and had the cancer removed from my body. What followed was Hell, in the most literal sense. Anyone who has ever been through chemotherapy will understand that statement.
But, it's been two years and I'm still alive!!!!
Most cancer projections are based on a 5 year model. I'm 2/5 of the way there. Does that mean in another 3 years, I will be able to finally Breathe Easy? I don't know, but I do know I'm going to through one hell of a party if I make it that long!!
Two years ago today, I was prepping for surgery, filling out paperwork, pre-registering at the hospital, and doing everything one normally does the day before life-changing surgery. I was praying for clean margins and clinging to my little pink teddy bear named Pearl and my Mother Goddess crystal.
Today...
I am trying to maintain the Drama Free zone around my house and trying to do what is best for my family and my grandson. I have bought a Buell Blast motorcycle and I'm riding every chance I get. I'm living each day as if it was a precious gift, which it is.
How have I changed? I've learned Life is more precious than most people think. I am not taking anything for granted. Every day that I wake up is a Gift.
I've learned that most Stuff is Petty... and I've learned to not sweat the petty things (and, if I had a sweaty thing to pet, I'd be doing that, too!!) ;-)
I have learned that life is too short to be unhappy. I am doing my best to Do all the things I want to do and Be all the things I want to be. I am trying to experience Life instead of just passively watching it go by.
Life used to consist of Duties and Responsibilities. I only had fun when there was Time.
Now, I'm realizing that those duties and responsibilities are mere fleeting things and I do have all the Time I need to have Fun and enjoy life. That doesn't mean I am shirking my responsibilities. It means they no longer hold all of my attention and certainly a lot less of my stress. I have a more relaxed attitude now. Everything that needs to get done will get done. Everything else, well.. does it really truly matter that the bed isn't made or the dishes haven't been done?
I go to work. I do what I need to, then I come home and leave work at work. I don't have the time or desire to worry about work outside my workplace.
I've become more "hard" in regards to other people's Drama. I will listen with a sympathetic ear and will offer to help if I can, but I've learned to figure out who owns the problem before I try to solve it. If it's not my problem, then finding the solution is not my job. I have enough of my own problems to solve without having to stress over other people's problems.
All in all, I can say 2 years later, it's Good to be Alive!