::sigh::
I don't know if it's just the fact that I feel like I get beat down everyday at work, or just the shear amount of work I have to do, or just the apartment/roomate situation, but I think, no, I know it's time for change.
I'm actually getting a little depressed which is no good. as amazing as Hong Kong was, I needed an extra 3 days after coming back to unwind then wind back up. That's how this weekend has been. As much as I tried to be productive everyday, I simply unwinded saturday and sunday. Now I'm stuck on monday with a ridiculous amount of work to do and absolutely dreading work tomorrow.
This also makes me feel like I'm not ready for this type of responsibility. I cannot wait to apply/find out if I'm going to grad school. I'm so ready to learn again and have a somewhat carefree life. Then again, does that mean I will ever be ready for this kind of responsibility?
I don't know, but I'm feeling extremely worn down by my job and I don't think that's how it's supposed to be, feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. After extended periods of time off I feel like I never want to go back, but then I do (because I have to) and I enjoy it because my kids are so awesome. I think it's the lack of resources, the demand of giving 8-10 tests per marking period (for seven subject, for 23 kids. ya, have fun grading those) and the constant negative feedback and remarks from the principal that make this so hard.
I have a pow-wow with one of the 8th grade teachers who has been there for 33 years (many-a-year before the current principal inherited her prinicpality--is that a word?) and she said the the turnover rate at the school is incredibally high. In the past 6 years she's had 5 different cooperating teachers. That means that 4 out of the 5 teachers left after one year, and the 5th stayed for 2.
I'm tempted to write a letter to the archdioses about how she's a bad principal. It's not like she'll write me a recommendation anywhere because she doesn't like it when people leave so doesn't help at all.
In other news, I calculated my finances for the rest of the year and I think I'll be ok for grad school which is a nice relief, because I want to be able to enjoy myself. Granted, I will be working 20 hours a week (the max possible on a student visa) but at least I will not have to worry too much about money.
I;m moving home in february because I'm tired of the landlord, the mice (one made a bed in my bed while I was in Hong Kong), the roaches and to a certain extent the roomates. The only thing is that it will be way easier, which is good and bad. My parents have a maid, so I don't have good apartment cleaning habits, but I won't have to deal with that. My mom cooks a lot, but I have really bad cooking habits, so I won't have to deal with that. at least I won't have to pay rent.
Also, I'm sick of being sick. I went to the doctor and it really didn't help. I still don't have 100% hearing in my right ear and everytime I swallow I hear a clicking sound.
ok, now that i've complained plenty, time to go grade for an extended period of time. oh joy.
I'm actually getting a little depressed which is no good. as amazing as Hong Kong was, I needed an extra 3 days after coming back to unwind then wind back up. That's how this weekend has been. As much as I tried to be productive everyday, I simply unwinded saturday and sunday. Now I'm stuck on monday with a ridiculous amount of work to do and absolutely dreading work tomorrow.
This also makes me feel like I'm not ready for this type of responsibility. I cannot wait to apply/find out if I'm going to grad school. I'm so ready to learn again and have a somewhat carefree life. Then again, does that mean I will ever be ready for this kind of responsibility?
I don't know, but I'm feeling extremely worn down by my job and I don't think that's how it's supposed to be, feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. After extended periods of time off I feel like I never want to go back, but then I do (because I have to) and I enjoy it because my kids are so awesome. I think it's the lack of resources, the demand of giving 8-10 tests per marking period (for seven subject, for 23 kids. ya, have fun grading those) and the constant negative feedback and remarks from the principal that make this so hard.
I have a pow-wow with one of the 8th grade teachers who has been there for 33 years (many-a-year before the current principal inherited her prinicpality--is that a word?) and she said the the turnover rate at the school is incredibally high. In the past 6 years she's had 5 different cooperating teachers. That means that 4 out of the 5 teachers left after one year, and the 5th stayed for 2.
I'm tempted to write a letter to the archdioses about how she's a bad principal. It's not like she'll write me a recommendation anywhere because she doesn't like it when people leave so doesn't help at all.
In other news, I calculated my finances for the rest of the year and I think I'll be ok for grad school which is a nice relief, because I want to be able to enjoy myself. Granted, I will be working 20 hours a week (the max possible on a student visa) but at least I will not have to worry too much about money.
I;m moving home in february because I'm tired of the landlord, the mice (one made a bed in my bed while I was in Hong Kong), the roaches and to a certain extent the roomates. The only thing is that it will be way easier, which is good and bad. My parents have a maid, so I don't have good apartment cleaning habits, but I won't have to deal with that. My mom cooks a lot, but I have really bad cooking habits, so I won't have to deal with that. at least I won't have to pay rent.
Also, I'm sick of being sick. I went to the doctor and it really didn't help. I still don't have 100% hearing in my right ear and everytime I swallow I hear a clicking sound.
ok, now that i've complained plenty, time to go grade for an extended period of time. oh joy.