can't you see that you lie to yourself, you can't see the world through a mirror
Home from boytime = le sad. It was way too short a visit, although any visit is better than no visit. I've noticed that it's both easier and harder to leave him and come back to my life without him - easier in the sense that I know we will see each other again, that the time apart isn't going to break us, that I will survive just fine, etc. But it's harder, too, I think because we are SO CLOSE to being together for real, on a more than temporary basis, and that makes me just want to have it already. Like, I know the whole engagement/apartment/living together/starting our future thing is coming in a matter of months, but I just want to START it already. And that makes it hard to leave, because leaving means I have to admit that I don't have those things yet.
Anyway, it was a good trip, even if it was short. While walking to the bus stop one day, we noticed a sign in one of the new apartment buildings near his campus that advertised a self-contained 2 bedroom unit for rent. I called the number later and found out that while the building we'd seen was only available from June through August, the woman who owned them had two other 2 bedroom units that would be available in August or September for longer term leases. These units would include kitchen, living room, bathroom, and laundry, plus a parking space, for $1300. We're definitely very interested in something like that, and the lady took my name and Brad's number so she can call us when one of those becomes available over the summer. Woo! We went to our favorite Langolino for dinner one night, I think after we had attempted to go grocery shopping at the super Wal-Mart, only to discover it was actually closed on both Good Friday AND Easter, something we would never have thought possible. (And let me tell you, the resulting shopping trip on the Saturday in between was heinous. No other store has quite that capacity for making me hate humanity in general.) Anyway! Dinner at Langolino was fabulous as always; I tried the gnocchi this time and we split a piece of the most heavenly raspberry cheesecake for dessert. So satisfying!
Otherwise, we did a lot of snuggling, watching family guy, etc. Brad's friend Jordan came over on Monday and took us out to a few stores, where Brad pre-ordered a game he's excited about and also bought me a book from Chapters. Oh! and I got to see Rebecca, a friend/former coworker of mine who married a Canadian and now lives in Toronto. We just hung out and chatted for a couple hours, and it was nice to see her and catch up. But back to the books, Brad bought me Snow Flower and the Secret Fan, which had been recommended to me by the woman I babysat for last fall. While it certainly seems to be an interesting book so far, it is set in 1800s China and deals a lot with footbinding, which, unfortunately, is a subject I can't read much about without becoming physically ill. I don't know why, but there are certain practices that truly make me nauseous when I read/hear about them, and footbinding is one of them. (female genital mutilation is another.) I think it's just that my imagination is too graphic, and when I picture the stuff that I'm reading about (which I don't know how NOT to do), it makes me ill. So what I've been doing is reading a little of Snow Flower and the Secret Fan and then, when it gets too much (which can be as little as a few sentences in the more descriptive parts), I switch to reading Zen and the Art of Vampires, which is very very light and fluffy and so helps to distract my brain from not-so-pretty images. The strategy is working so far, and I'm hoping that I'll soon get past the worst of the footbinding descriptions so I can focus on the rest of the story.
Let's see, what else. Tomorrow I'm having lunch with my dad, so we'll see what happens there. I have mixed emotions, so I'll just wait to say more till after we talk. I picked up my cap and gown for graduation yesterday . . . only to get an email this morning saying that they accidentally distributed the wrong EdS hoods yesterday, so now they're sending me the correct one. I asked what I should do with the one I picked up already and was told that I could bring it back on Commencement Day, but if not, then not to worry about it. Which probably means I'm going to end up with a random extra hood. Anyone want one? Lol. Anyway, I'm very much enjoying this break from work, and not exactly looking forward to going back on Monday. Although, really, it's hardly more than two months left, and that's a little surprising. I think I'm losing coherency in my thoughts, so I should probably wrap this up. I miss the boy already and I am counting down till he comes down for graduation in May. Hope you're all doing well!
Oh, p.s. pictures (not very many) from my trip are up on facebook and picasa, whichever you prefer. Sorry, I'm too lazy to put direct links right now.
Anyway, it was a good trip, even if it was short. While walking to the bus stop one day, we noticed a sign in one of the new apartment buildings near his campus that advertised a self-contained 2 bedroom unit for rent. I called the number later and found out that while the building we'd seen was only available from June through August, the woman who owned them had two other 2 bedroom units that would be available in August or September for longer term leases. These units would include kitchen, living room, bathroom, and laundry, plus a parking space, for $1300. We're definitely very interested in something like that, and the lady took my name and Brad's number so she can call us when one of those becomes available over the summer. Woo! We went to our favorite Langolino for dinner one night, I think after we had attempted to go grocery shopping at the super Wal-Mart, only to discover it was actually closed on both Good Friday AND Easter, something we would never have thought possible. (And let me tell you, the resulting shopping trip on the Saturday in between was heinous. No other store has quite that capacity for making me hate humanity in general.) Anyway! Dinner at Langolino was fabulous as always; I tried the gnocchi this time and we split a piece of the most heavenly raspberry cheesecake for dessert. So satisfying!
Otherwise, we did a lot of snuggling, watching family guy, etc. Brad's friend Jordan came over on Monday and took us out to a few stores, where Brad pre-ordered a game he's excited about and also bought me a book from Chapters. Oh! and I got to see Rebecca, a friend/former coworker of mine who married a Canadian and now lives in Toronto. We just hung out and chatted for a couple hours, and it was nice to see her and catch up. But back to the books, Brad bought me Snow Flower and the Secret Fan, which had been recommended to me by the woman I babysat for last fall. While it certainly seems to be an interesting book so far, it is set in 1800s China and deals a lot with footbinding, which, unfortunately, is a subject I can't read much about without becoming physically ill. I don't know why, but there are certain practices that truly make me nauseous when I read/hear about them, and footbinding is one of them. (female genital mutilation is another.) I think it's just that my imagination is too graphic, and when I picture the stuff that I'm reading about (which I don't know how NOT to do), it makes me ill. So what I've been doing is reading a little of Snow Flower and the Secret Fan and then, when it gets too much (which can be as little as a few sentences in the more descriptive parts), I switch to reading Zen and the Art of Vampires, which is very very light and fluffy and so helps to distract my brain from not-so-pretty images. The strategy is working so far, and I'm hoping that I'll soon get past the worst of the footbinding descriptions so I can focus on the rest of the story.
Let's see, what else. Tomorrow I'm having lunch with my dad, so we'll see what happens there. I have mixed emotions, so I'll just wait to say more till after we talk. I picked up my cap and gown for graduation yesterday . . . only to get an email this morning saying that they accidentally distributed the wrong EdS hoods yesterday, so now they're sending me the correct one. I asked what I should do with the one I picked up already and was told that I could bring it back on Commencement Day, but if not, then not to worry about it. Which probably means I'm going to end up with a random extra hood. Anyone want one? Lol. Anyway, I'm very much enjoying this break from work, and not exactly looking forward to going back on Monday. Although, really, it's hardly more than two months left, and that's a little surprising. I think I'm losing coherency in my thoughts, so I should probably wrap this up. I miss the boy already and I am counting down till he comes down for graduation in May. Hope you're all doing well!
Oh, p.s. pictures (not very many) from my trip are up on facebook and picasa, whichever you prefer. Sorry, I'm too lazy to put direct links right now.