Emma Ruth Baum, WELCOME!
Well, she's finally here and more lovely than I could have ever imagined. She was born on March 23 @ 11:43pm. She was 7lbs12oz and 21.5 inches long. Cute as a button ;-)
And now I'm going to have a breakdown...it seems that Brandon believes that when he comes home from work he doesn't need to help w/ Emma. Like, weekends are fine, when I was still in the hospital w/ her he helped out then for the most part, minus when he was sleeping. And sleeping, the kid won't wake up until I panic. LoL, last night at 3:30 she jarred me from sleep and was crying, well, he woke up too but just laid there. I would think that to make things go a little faster he would like, go get the bottle out of the fridge and warm it up for me while I change her and then the bottle will be ready to go when I need it. But I have to ask him or tell him numerous times to get up and help. I know he works 8-9 hours a night but I have her all day long and I'm doing laundry and putting away his clothes that he for some reason just leaves out all the time and washing dishes and answering phone calls from his family while I'm trying to keep Emma asleep for just an hour. Today, she ate 3 times in 2 hours. 3 times. That's 2 bottles and 30 minutes nursing. There's no way I can't say something to him about this, about how I feel. I'm frazzled. I'm a one week old parent and I'm completely worn. She's even already spent the night at Kim's...because 'you look tired Jenny, go shower and rest.' This was Wednesday night, I hadn't showered since Monday, hadn't eaten anything good since Monday...and Brandon was completely pissy so I was like, fine...it's cool. I cried when she left. I didn't want to be away from her, she's my baby and I'm this sucky of a parent that I can't take care of her for a week. I have to have her grandma get her? wtf?
Brandon just came home early to spend time w/ me and Emma. What an update...so now I don't want to say anything. I can't. I've just cried way too much today about this baby. I love her so much and I don't want to feel this frustrated. I don't know what to do though...I am getting worried that Brandon's going to lose his job if he doesn't fucking stay there all day but I guess he'll deal if he does...I have to stay on leave until mid-May though so hopefully he keeps himself going. I need to go. It took me 4 hours to write this...LoL
I love BMB and ERB. Please send some prayers up for me and my frustrated self. xoxoxo