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[cfud_anon]

[THIS SURE IS AN ANON CONFESSION POST. your character feels STRANGELY COMPELLED to offload whatever's really concerning them. Camp sure is strange like that! Maybe someone will be able to help with their concerns in a helpful and meaningful way! ... or, as is more likely, someone will fail and/or troll, but it is the thought that counts.]

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[cfudanon]

I still don't know if this means I'm gay or if it's just him, and I really don't know if that should bother me??

[cfud_anon]

Does it bother you?

[cfudanon]

I don't know! I guess it's like, WHAT DOES THIS MEAN does it mean anything? You know?

[cfud_anon]

Yeah, I know. It's easy to go "well it doesn't matter" but it does, not because you'd change your mind if he was a she but more about what it means about you.

Does that make sense?

[cfudanon]

Yeah! That's it exactly! I'm like, okay, this guy is the most important person in my life, nothing would change that, but on a personal note, while self-reflecting or whatever, should I just be assuming that I'm gay here? Mostly straight but have no idea because totally uninterested in anyone but this person?

[cfud_anon]

First up, it's really sweet that you think that he's the most important person in your life.

I'm not sure how to advise you, given that you and I don't know each other, but if it helps, this place is a good place to learn about that kind of thing. I haven't seen too much in the way of homophobia, though I haven't exactly quizzed everyone about it.

[cfudanon]

I don't think it or anything, I know it? It's like that.

Yeah I guess. I mean it's not like I had any life plans or anything anyway it's just weird to think about. Like of course I figured I was straight until this happened and now it's like HAVE I BEEN WRONG THIS WHOLE TIME I dunno I dunno. It isn't eating at me or anything but it nibbles sometimes.

[cfud_anon]

That's really sweet.

I don't think you were wrong. Sexuality is weird! We get told that it's static, but a lot of the time it's fluid and shifting and what was right one week may not be another week. You were right then, but whether you're right now is up to you.

[cfudanon]

Eh? Nah... I mean... I guess.. haha, I'm sweet? Cool.

Wait, does this mean I might not be interested in him later??

[cfud_anon]

Don't use that in any arguments you have with him later. I'm not sure "some anonymous person thinks I'm sweet" wins any arguments.

No, it doesn't mean that. It means that what you learn here will change how you define yourself later, whether you're straight, bi, poly, straight with an exception for this guy, or you just do what you want.

[cfudanon]

You think? I figured it'd make a point... darn.

I don't know what half of those are, but I guess that makes sense? Like before I was straight 'cause I didn't think there was even a possibility I'd like a guy?

[cfud_anon]

No such luck. You'll just have to make do with your wit, intellect and make up kissing.

Well, yeah. We're taught to assume that being straight is the norm, right? Then you get older and you learn that it kinda isn't.

[cfudanon]

Well, I'm awesome in all three of those, so it should be okay!!

Right... Man, I just googled "Poly" and I'm more confused. What does a New York University have to do with any of this?

[cfud_anon]

I'm not sure whether I should applaud you or not for knowing that.

What happens in college stays in college, or so I'm told. I'm not American, so sitcoms may have lied to me. Anyway, it's more "having relationships with multiple people at the same time".

[cfudanon]

Anyone who tells me otherwise is just being a jerk. Including that guy. Just so you know.

I'm not going to college so I guess it's okay?

[cfud_anon]

You're not?