i lay my head down to sleep....
i cant breath...i try to but all i feel is a sharp pain in my throat...all i can do is think back when my life involved trust love and comfort somthing thats a vary distant mermory to this present day...how long can this go on...im thankful to what i do have myself and memories a car packed full of my clothes once again and a sweet job...my dad lost his job been drinking bourbon since last monday tonigth was the final straw it went down very simular from when my grandfather kicked him out, except i didnt hit the floor...luckly i have learnt so many crucial life lessons in these last couple months maybe i have grown wiser and more patient maybe more rigid and unbothersome...atleast im not filled with anger atleast i can still smile.i hope my furniture will be there tommorw i dont wanna lose that nigth stand or that grill.