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well the job hunt is looking good i think im gonna be able to snag day shifts mucho stoked on that.
Here i go with another day the guilt is killing me i never wanted hurt you ,just thinking about it makes me want to crawl into a drain.i cant keep the times we shared off my mind either.nigths looking skyward seeing how high we could get or how big we could smile,runing aorund the house sock footed in the morning cleaning and playing ,wrestleing ,coming home at nigth to see you sleeping there so beautifuly.the times were you only felt safe locked in our room with your head firmly pressed to my chest.i miss nigths of firsts experiences and talks/walks that lasted for hours. Wakeing up random hours of hte nigth feeling that familar feeling of you wraping your arms around me and pulling me close,or the feeling of rolling over to see your sweet face or you on top of me tryign to wake me up with a huge smile on your face.but most of all i miss the feeling that i was your everything thats what made me the most satisfied not what i got out of it more what i got to give you and help you with i loved being here for you and i still am always will be.i just wish i had change for a blunt and no need to stop by. i wish i could have handled my reaction better.thats all in the past now, i just hope this is just the end of this chapter were in and the story will pick back up with time.
ive learnt so much from you and this love i constantly make mistakes in which i grow and learn by thank you for being caring and understanding as long as you did, this mistake however i dont expect to be forgiven i know what it is to have one certian thing in your life since child hood.i never would have came between that in any sort of rational state of mind.thougth no drug i could take could be a liable excuse i hope you find somewhere in your heart to forgive me because the thoght of just being forgotten is the worse thing ever.
i hate that nothign in life is final and certian.i wish that kiss last nigth wouldnt have ended.
im picking up the pieces thou, i can bend and not break im close to being my strong self again. goals are back in motion i am just egar to see where this takes me next.she is one in a million im so happy i once was able to call her mine =)
Here i go with another day the guilt is killing me i never wanted hurt you ,just thinking about it makes me want to crawl into a drain.i cant keep the times we shared off my mind either.nigths looking skyward seeing how high we could get or how big we could smile,runing aorund the house sock footed in the morning cleaning and playing ,wrestleing ,coming home at nigth to see you sleeping there so beautifuly.the times were you only felt safe locked in our room with your head firmly pressed to my chest.i miss nigths of firsts experiences and talks/walks that lasted for hours. Wakeing up random hours of hte nigth feeling that familar feeling of you wraping your arms around me and pulling me close,or the feeling of rolling over to see your sweet face or you on top of me tryign to wake me up with a huge smile on your face.but most of all i miss the feeling that i was your everything thats what made me the most satisfied not what i got out of it more what i got to give you and help you with i loved being here for you and i still am always will be.i just wish i had change for a blunt and no need to stop by. i wish i could have handled my reaction better.thats all in the past now, i just hope this is just the end of this chapter were in and the story will pick back up with time.
ive learnt so much from you and this love i constantly make mistakes in which i grow and learn by thank you for being caring and understanding as long as you did, this mistake however i dont expect to be forgiven i know what it is to have one certian thing in your life since child hood.i never would have came between that in any sort of rational state of mind.thougth no drug i could take could be a liable excuse i hope you find somewhere in your heart to forgive me because the thoght of just being forgotten is the worse thing ever.
i hate that nothign in life is final and certian.i wish that kiss last nigth wouldnt have ended.
im picking up the pieces thou, i can bend and not break im close to being my strong self again. goals are back in motion i am just egar to see where this takes me next.she is one in a million im so happy i once was able to call her mine =)