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I'm feeling a real aura of hostility around me lately... I'm really tempted to just go for a drive out to somewhere, ANYWHERE to escape this life. Drinking doesn't let me escape anymore, I need to leave-to somewhere FAR away from here, from my ordinary life, from all those who I care so much about. I need to leave them all. I can only give so much without getting any in return, and I'm about empty. That familiar friend known a emptiness is creeping back in. I need to retreat back into myself, away from the selfishness of the people around me. I just want out.