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Every time I come on here I want to change the icon, but I always get distracted by the time I sign off. Sigh.
I feel so shitty right now. I feel alone and incompetent. I'm sick of this. I can't wait until school is over. I feel like I can't do anything right these days. I am slowly working on my orginization, and it gets a little better every day. But it's not the same as it was before. I want to go back to the way I was when I was really happy all of the time. I don't know where that went, but I really want it back. I hate this. I know it would be a lot easier if I was totally in love with life like I used to be. But I feel like I won't be like that until school is over. =/ Only 3 more weeks I guess....
In happier news, I have been dating Rico for a year now. ^.^ Very exciting. This is my longest relationship by far, also, the best BY FAR. I was thinking about it the other day and we have a very good relationship. I feel so lucky to have him. I also feel like I am not good enough for him though. Ugh what happened to my self esteem?! I am NOT normally this girl! Ew! I don't like it! No more thoughts like this pleaseeee! =] Anywayyyyyy to celebrate, he is getting me a scavenger hunt!!!!! OMG I CANNOT wait! He has this huge idea in his head. He is going to have a piece of my present at every location and then I will have to put it together at the end!!!! HE IS SO AWESOME! What an amazing idea and how sweet of him to put this much thought/effort into it!!!!! =]
I have NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT TO GET HIM.
If anyone is reading this and has an idea PLEASE let me knowwww! I have about a week, and I told him his present is going to be late already (I am making him a blanket..... yeahhhh it's going to be like months late lol. OH WELL ITS APRIL ANYWAY WHO NEEDS A BLANKET RIGHT NOW! lol) But I want to get him something ELSE too! I have thought of lots of ideas, but all my ideas are things I WANT not that HE would want. lol =/ I fail! I am probably going to get him the new Splinter Cell game bc he said he wants to play it but he doesn't want to buy it! So I will buy it =D But I feel like I need something ELSE too! =/ So if anyone is reading PLEASE help me out! (OH I am getting those customized m&ms too if they aren't too expensive!)
I think I am going to end here, actually. Wasn;t my original plan, but now I feel like searching for gifts. =]
I feel so shitty right now. I feel alone and incompetent. I'm sick of this. I can't wait until school is over. I feel like I can't do anything right these days. I am slowly working on my orginization, and it gets a little better every day. But it's not the same as it was before. I want to go back to the way I was when I was really happy all of the time. I don't know where that went, but I really want it back. I hate this. I know it would be a lot easier if I was totally in love with life like I used to be. But I feel like I won't be like that until school is over. =/ Only 3 more weeks I guess....
In happier news, I have been dating Rico for a year now. ^.^ Very exciting. This is my longest relationship by far, also, the best BY FAR. I was thinking about it the other day and we have a very good relationship. I feel so lucky to have him. I also feel like I am not good enough for him though. Ugh what happened to my self esteem?! I am NOT normally this girl! Ew! I don't like it! No more thoughts like this pleaseeee! =] Anywayyyyyy to celebrate, he is getting me a scavenger hunt!!!!! OMG I CANNOT wait! He has this huge idea in his head. He is going to have a piece of my present at every location and then I will have to put it together at the end!!!! HE IS SO AWESOME! What an amazing idea and how sweet of him to put this much thought/effort into it!!!!! =]
I have NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT TO GET HIM.
If anyone is reading this and has an idea PLEASE let me knowwww! I have about a week, and I told him his present is going to be late already (I am making him a blanket..... yeahhhh it's going to be like months late lol. OH WELL ITS APRIL ANYWAY WHO NEEDS A BLANKET RIGHT NOW! lol) But I want to get him something ELSE too! I have thought of lots of ideas, but all my ideas are things I WANT not that HE would want. lol =/ I fail! I am probably going to get him the new Splinter Cell game bc he said he wants to play it but he doesn't want to buy it! So I will buy it =D But I feel like I need something ELSE too! =/ So if anyone is reading PLEASE help me out! (OH I am getting those customized m&ms too if they aren't too expensive!)
I think I am going to end here, actually. Wasn;t my original plan, but now I feel like searching for gifts. =]