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God is good.
That is my mind set right now. I don't know, yesterday just made me really happy. It reminded me that He really does have a plan. Some of the things that were said at worship generation last night, they just tied in so well with everything that had been going through my head, and I couldn't stop smiling with this feeling of absolute happiness. Its like, I know that everything is going to be alright, even though there are obstacles. And last night that feeling was incredibly strong. There's no real reason for me to be happy, but I am. Just knowing that God is there makes me happy. And I don't want to lose sight of this again. I almost lost the fight, and this time I'm holding on. I was so proud of the people who went up to the stage, that had the strength to do what I couldn't when I was in their place. I was telling my mom about that, and she kind of stopped and was like "you think its cool when people do that?" and I said yes. she was a tad drunk btw, but she told me that when her sister was "born again" (thats her term for most Christians) that she made her go do something like that, and that nothing happened. I explained that of course it didn't, if she didn't really want it, if her heart wasn't in it, and she seemed somewhat confused. And for a minute I thought, "you know what, maybe there is a small chance for her. Its miniscule, but its there." And that made me happier. Right before that my sister had asked me some questions about God, and that brought into focus the fact that I need to help start her on the right path before I leave, and my mom gets ahold of her. But anyways, I went to bed happy.
This morning in math, Sea Breeze came in and sang "Lean on Me" to me, and I know Pam was primarily behind it, but I guess the rest of the girls were in on it too. It was so sweet, although I didn't know how to react. Alyssa kept giggling and couldn't keep a straight face. I was sooo red. But it was great. You guys sounded awesome :) So now I'm home, and still happy. Everyone is bummed about V-Day, but it doesn't bother me. I'm happy with my life, and it doesn't bother me that I don't have a boyfriend. I don't feel like I need one at this time in my life. Well, I'm going to go do hw or something. tata!
That is my mind set right now. I don't know, yesterday just made me really happy. It reminded me that He really does have a plan. Some of the things that were said at worship generation last night, they just tied in so well with everything that had been going through my head, and I couldn't stop smiling with this feeling of absolute happiness. Its like, I know that everything is going to be alright, even though there are obstacles. And last night that feeling was incredibly strong. There's no real reason for me to be happy, but I am. Just knowing that God is there makes me happy. And I don't want to lose sight of this again. I almost lost the fight, and this time I'm holding on. I was so proud of the people who went up to the stage, that had the strength to do what I couldn't when I was in their place. I was telling my mom about that, and she kind of stopped and was like "you think its cool when people do that?" and I said yes. she was a tad drunk btw, but she told me that when her sister was "born again" (thats her term for most Christians) that she made her go do something like that, and that nothing happened. I explained that of course it didn't, if she didn't really want it, if her heart wasn't in it, and she seemed somewhat confused. And for a minute I thought, "you know what, maybe there is a small chance for her. Its miniscule, but its there." And that made me happier. Right before that my sister had asked me some questions about God, and that brought into focus the fact that I need to help start her on the right path before I leave, and my mom gets ahold of her. But anyways, I went to bed happy.
This morning in math, Sea Breeze came in and sang "Lean on Me" to me, and I know Pam was primarily behind it, but I guess the rest of the girls were in on it too. It was so sweet, although I didn't know how to react. Alyssa kept giggling and couldn't keep a straight face. I was sooo red. But it was great. You guys sounded awesome :) So now I'm home, and still happy. Everyone is bummed about V-Day, but it doesn't bother me. I'm happy with my life, and it doesn't bother me that I don't have a boyfriend. I don't feel like I need one at this time in my life. Well, I'm going to go do hw or something. tata!