Our Story
Title: Our Story
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Summary: Uncomplete love leaves things completed.
It was the first time I ever feel like protecting someone.
Your fears were so clear in my eyes when I looked at you.
Or just that my eyes only had you?
You were standing in the hallway, lips curled like how it would usually. I made my way to your side and ruffled your hair. You lean in to my touches, I grinned. I was caught in surprise as you moved closer to me, leaning your head on my shoulder. The applied pressure wasn’t too much, just a gentle weight on my shoulder.
Our bodies were close, too close but it feels comfortable. I could feel your heart beating against mine. Tonight our distance no longer seemed far. Right now, we were more than just having a relative relationship, maybe even more than friends. Or was it because of the family problem you were facing and needed someone you could lean on to? Am I that perfect choice in your mind?
I caress your hair softly and your gripped tightens around me. I know what we were doing right now was wrong, perhaps the age gap has disappeared the moment you touched me.
“I’m scare, hyung. I never have been so afraid in my life.” Your voice was trembling, either from the fact you were cold or you were really scared. I know it’s my fault to suggest that you should stay over with me until they have settled with their own problem. Was this better than just witnessing them quarreling almost every single day?
That year you were 14 and I was 23.
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You let me get use to your presence, making me unable to live without you.
I longed for you but I can’t show it to you.
It’s been about a year now, we were living under one roof. Even though your parents’ problem was settled about half a year ago, you didn’t move back to your own house. It’s not that I mind to share my bedroom with someone, but I thought you wanted to spend more family time with them. Of course I was glad they allowed you to stay, it’s rather lonely just staying all by myself in apartment on the queen size bed. Why the heck did I even brought a queen size bed?
The only reason you gave them was it’s nearer to your school, so you could spend the traveling time in something that’s more useful. Actually about the first few months, I was getting used to your presence. Sometime it feels rather empty without you when you go back to your own home. It makes the bed look emptier. It was another weekday where I get to spend the five day with you. Another five precious day. Why can’t my off day be on weekdays? Blame it all on my office work. But at least I can see you on Sunday night.
But I do enjoy the morning where I wake you up, you whined with that cute voice of yours. I couldn’t help to chuckle and used my ultimate weapon against you which was to tickle you. You would beg me to stop and I would… I don’t bear torture you anyway. Then I will watch you walk to the bathroom to clean up and get ready for school.
It never gets boring, I don’t know why… To parent, they may find it a nuisance. To me, his actions were not a nuisance act at all. I always get nervous whenever Sunday comes… He would just pop that question to me, taking me by surprise.
“Did you miss me over the weekend?” his cheeky grin tells me he’s teasing me. Of course, I can’t tell him I miss him so badly even though he wasn’t by my side for just two nights. I would just laugh it off and ruffles his hair.
That year you were 14 going 15 and I was 23 going 24.
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You taught me the world’s sweetest things,
That was known as love.
I never thought of being able to spend the whole weekend with you, I think I’m starting to love the holidays. Of course I agreed to whatever place you name. It more like you name it, we’ll go. I was rather surprised that you wanted just to enjoy the breeze so it means I have to bring you to a place where there is no red light so that I can just drive through.
I’m not distracted by his him, I swear my eyes were still on the road. The wind played with his hair, both of his eyes were shut tightly to enjoy the wind. His head was out of the window, he was using his heart to feel everything he was feeling right now. I like his smile, as he was contented. I’m glad I brought this car a few years ago.
After ten to twenty minutes of breeze, I drove off to the nearest beach. The beach where we could see the sunset clearly, you were still excited about watching the sunset, running about finding things. I sat down to enjoy this moment. I saw you picking up a stick before taking up the space beside me.
“Hyung, thanks a lot for today.” Actually I should be the one thanking him for giving me such a memorable day. I couldn’t touch his hair because of the sand that was on my hand. He smiled cheerfully and started writing on the sand.
Hyung, Saranghae.
I looked from the words on the sand before turning my gaze back to Taemin… What kind of love is this? The kind of love that is not between a lovers or the kind of love that is between a lovers? You place your lips lightly on my cheek before staring at me with that kind of eyes.
I took the stick from his hands and wrote.
I love you too.
I never know I would ever do this, I know it’s wrong for two guys to fall in love, but I don’t know why I still let myself fall into this kind of situation. In those past relationships, I never had felt so complete before. This time the feeling was different. I wrapped my arms around your waist and you lean your weight on me.
That year you were 15 and I was 24.
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Then you showed me the world’s cruelest things,
That was known as the reality.
I shouldn’t have expected our love to last long, really. That’s the most foolish thinking I had when we were together. I even wanted to settle down with him, but it’s all just my one-sided wish. It all started when suddenly you didn’t come to my house for the week. I remembered getting a sms from you saying you would be staying at home for that week.
I can’t say anything, if it’s what you wanted. But that week, I really longed for you. Maybe it was your smiled that have crave too deep in my mind, I couldn’t wash it off my mind even for a second.
The next week, you came over like usual. This time with a different kind of feeling, I can’t explain… I only know it’s different. You wiped away that usual smile off your face, please don’t do this to me. I wanted to reach out to touch your shoulder but you flinched away. I was shocked. Utterly shocked.
“Hyung, Mianhae.” I know what you mean, I took a step back, keeping a safe distance away from you. Even if I couldn’t hold back myself when the urge is too strong, I wouldn’t be able to touch you. This means our relationship is just cousin. Simple as that.
“You don’t have to explain, I know.” I forced myself to smile, it’s bitter…
You sat at the couch and placed your phone on the coffee table. I managed to catch a glimpse of the display pic… It’s no longer me and you as the wallpaper… Whatever I heard was true right?
“Is that your new girlfriend your dad talked about when you weren’t here last week?” I’m trying my best not to sound hurt or sarcastic, but it’s hard.
“Yeah,” Maybe between us no longer has to say ‘let’s break up’ kind of words. He just needed to let me know he has a girlfriend. I guess I was mature enough not to hold him back?
That year you were 16 going 17 and I was 24 going 25.
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For that week, it really feels like shit, I just can’t erase off. Did I really could let you go? I heard so many things about you and your little girlfriend. Why, why do I have to face this truth? All of the sudden I received a message from Taemin’s best friend, Kibum. He told me to go to a website and even gave me a password.
Mentally I hoped it’s not some scam website, but looking at it… It’s a website where you can lock entries with password. I typed the password in and managed to open it.
A lot of his thoughts were written, I never knew so much things were on his mind. He was worried for me, a 25 year old man who is in love with someone who was 9 years younger. Age wasn’t much of the problem… Gender was…
After reading his sentiment post, my heart doesn’t feel hurt anymore… It because, the only reason he gave up our relationship was because… He’s a guy and not for the fact he changed his heart. I wish I could be like how those drama show like, hug you and tell you that it’s not wrong to love at all. Making you mine, only mine.
The coward part of me, held me back. All I did was, I act as if I never had seen this. Keeping the fact that you still do have feeling for me, somewhere in my heart.
I can’t tell you with my lips how much I love you,
I can only use my heart to let you feel my love.
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:) Base on life story
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Summary: Uncomplete love leaves things completed.
It was the first time I ever feel like protecting someone.
Your fears were so clear in my eyes when I looked at you.
Or just that my eyes only had you?
You were standing in the hallway, lips curled like how it would usually. I made my way to your side and ruffled your hair. You lean in to my touches, I grinned. I was caught in surprise as you moved closer to me, leaning your head on my shoulder. The applied pressure wasn’t too much, just a gentle weight on my shoulder.
Our bodies were close, too close but it feels comfortable. I could feel your heart beating against mine. Tonight our distance no longer seemed far. Right now, we were more than just having a relative relationship, maybe even more than friends. Or was it because of the family problem you were facing and needed someone you could lean on to? Am I that perfect choice in your mind?
I caress your hair softly and your gripped tightens around me. I know what we were doing right now was wrong, perhaps the age gap has disappeared the moment you touched me.
“I’m scare, hyung. I never have been so afraid in my life.” Your voice was trembling, either from the fact you were cold or you were really scared. I know it’s my fault to suggest that you should stay over with me until they have settled with their own problem. Was this better than just witnessing them quarreling almost every single day?
That year you were 14 and I was 23.
- - - - - - - - - -
You let me get use to your presence, making me unable to live without you.
I longed for you but I can’t show it to you.
It’s been about a year now, we were living under one roof. Even though your parents’ problem was settled about half a year ago, you didn’t move back to your own house. It’s not that I mind to share my bedroom with someone, but I thought you wanted to spend more family time with them. Of course I was glad they allowed you to stay, it’s rather lonely just staying all by myself in apartment on the queen size bed. Why the heck did I even brought a queen size bed?
The only reason you gave them was it’s nearer to your school, so you could spend the traveling time in something that’s more useful. Actually about the first few months, I was getting used to your presence. Sometime it feels rather empty without you when you go back to your own home. It makes the bed look emptier. It was another weekday where I get to spend the five day with you. Another five precious day. Why can’t my off day be on weekdays? Blame it all on my office work. But at least I can see you on Sunday night.
But I do enjoy the morning where I wake you up, you whined with that cute voice of yours. I couldn’t help to chuckle and used my ultimate weapon against you which was to tickle you. You would beg me to stop and I would… I don’t bear torture you anyway. Then I will watch you walk to the bathroom to clean up and get ready for school.
It never gets boring, I don’t know why… To parent, they may find it a nuisance. To me, his actions were not a nuisance act at all. I always get nervous whenever Sunday comes… He would just pop that question to me, taking me by surprise.
“Did you miss me over the weekend?” his cheeky grin tells me he’s teasing me. Of course, I can’t tell him I miss him so badly even though he wasn’t by my side for just two nights. I would just laugh it off and ruffles his hair.
That year you were 14 going 15 and I was 23 going 24.
- - - - - - - - - -
You taught me the world’s sweetest things,
That was known as love.
I never thought of being able to spend the whole weekend with you, I think I’m starting to love the holidays. Of course I agreed to whatever place you name. It more like you name it, we’ll go. I was rather surprised that you wanted just to enjoy the breeze so it means I have to bring you to a place where there is no red light so that I can just drive through.
I’m not distracted by his him, I swear my eyes were still on the road. The wind played with his hair, both of his eyes were shut tightly to enjoy the wind. His head was out of the window, he was using his heart to feel everything he was feeling right now. I like his smile, as he was contented. I’m glad I brought this car a few years ago.
After ten to twenty minutes of breeze, I drove off to the nearest beach. The beach where we could see the sunset clearly, you were still excited about watching the sunset, running about finding things. I sat down to enjoy this moment. I saw you picking up a stick before taking up the space beside me.
“Hyung, thanks a lot for today.” Actually I should be the one thanking him for giving me such a memorable day. I couldn’t touch his hair because of the sand that was on my hand. He smiled cheerfully and started writing on the sand.
Hyung, Saranghae.
I looked from the words on the sand before turning my gaze back to Taemin… What kind of love is this? The kind of love that is not between a lovers or the kind of love that is between a lovers? You place your lips lightly on my cheek before staring at me with that kind of eyes.
I took the stick from his hands and wrote.
I love you too.
I never know I would ever do this, I know it’s wrong for two guys to fall in love, but I don’t know why I still let myself fall into this kind of situation. In those past relationships, I never had felt so complete before. This time the feeling was different. I wrapped my arms around your waist and you lean your weight on me.
That year you were 15 and I was 24.
- - - - - - - - - -
Then you showed me the world’s cruelest things,
That was known as the reality.
I shouldn’t have expected our love to last long, really. That’s the most foolish thinking I had when we were together. I even wanted to settle down with him, but it’s all just my one-sided wish. It all started when suddenly you didn’t come to my house for the week. I remembered getting a sms from you saying you would be staying at home for that week.
I can’t say anything, if it’s what you wanted. But that week, I really longed for you. Maybe it was your smiled that have crave too deep in my mind, I couldn’t wash it off my mind even for a second.
The next week, you came over like usual. This time with a different kind of feeling, I can’t explain… I only know it’s different. You wiped away that usual smile off your face, please don’t do this to me. I wanted to reach out to touch your shoulder but you flinched away. I was shocked. Utterly shocked.
“Hyung, Mianhae.” I know what you mean, I took a step back, keeping a safe distance away from you. Even if I couldn’t hold back myself when the urge is too strong, I wouldn’t be able to touch you. This means our relationship is just cousin. Simple as that.
“You don’t have to explain, I know.” I forced myself to smile, it’s bitter…
You sat at the couch and placed your phone on the coffee table. I managed to catch a glimpse of the display pic… It’s no longer me and you as the wallpaper… Whatever I heard was true right?
“Is that your new girlfriend your dad talked about when you weren’t here last week?” I’m trying my best not to sound hurt or sarcastic, but it’s hard.
“Yeah,” Maybe between us no longer has to say ‘let’s break up’ kind of words. He just needed to let me know he has a girlfriend. I guess I was mature enough not to hold him back?
That year you were 16 going 17 and I was 24 going 25.
- - - - - - - - - -
For that week, it really feels like shit, I just can’t erase off. Did I really could let you go? I heard so many things about you and your little girlfriend. Why, why do I have to face this truth? All of the sudden I received a message from Taemin’s best friend, Kibum. He told me to go to a website and even gave me a password.
Mentally I hoped it’s not some scam website, but looking at it… It’s a website where you can lock entries with password. I typed the password in and managed to open it.
A lot of his thoughts were written, I never knew so much things were on his mind. He was worried for me, a 25 year old man who is in love with someone who was 9 years younger. Age wasn’t much of the problem… Gender was…
After reading his sentiment post, my heart doesn’t feel hurt anymore… It because, the only reason he gave up our relationship was because… He’s a guy and not for the fact he changed his heart. I wish I could be like how those drama show like, hug you and tell you that it’s not wrong to love at all. Making you mine, only mine.
The coward part of me, held me back. All I did was, I act as if I never had seen this. Keeping the fact that you still do have feeling for me, somewhere in my heart.
I can’t tell you with my lips how much I love you,
I can only use my heart to let you feel my love.
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:) Base on life story