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i feel totally alone and so depressed. Everyone i know is getting married, got married, and had kids. It's like I have this big hole in my heart and I don't feel completely whole. Something is missing. I am only 19 but i feel so old. And I don't have anything to show for my life. oooo... i moved to california. BFD! I have no job and a boyfriend that can hardly stand to be around me. And I desperately want my family. But even my family doesn't feel complete. How can you move on when you can't let go. So many times, I have heard some of those old skool songs and they bring back memories of high school and they trigger memories I forgot that I had. I feel cheated sometimes and I don't fit in anywhere. I am seriously contemplating moving back to the east coast. at least it would be a 4 hour drive and not a 5 hour flight and then a 7 hour drive.