I Still Love You - One-shot
Title: I Still Love You
Author: Caleighxo
Rating: I'll go with PG,
if anyone thinks otherwise tell me.
Length: Oneshot
Warnings: They're all female characters, so it's basically a yuri. [without any simple yuri things]
Pairings: There aren't any names in this.
But they're all female characters.
Band: No characters in here are from a band, unless you'd like to think they are. The song used for inspiration is Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade.
Disclaimer: I own everything in this, because it's basically about my life. I just call it a fanfiction because I didn't want my ex to know it was about us.
Summary: After my girlfriend broke up with me, this is what happened. I overexagerated on some things though.
*You have to look out for the lyrics to the actual song, because I'm lame and can't figure out how to italicize them.
'The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core'
We hardly ever fought. A few arguments here and there, sure, but it made us stronger as a couple. I guess it prepared me for the worst.
Our fight. Our last fight. The fight that broke us apart. The fight that no longer allowed me to express my true feelings towards you; a fight that meant never saying those three words that I still wish to say.
You just didn't love me anymore, it was that simple.
And yet, I seem to have a habit of turning the most simple things into the worst possible situations.
'But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find'
You were always so perfect, even though you thought you weren't. You were my role model, the person that I wanted to be like. You were just so amazing. I actually had the nerve to call you and ask you what you were doing that weekend.
And you replyed, "I have plans." I knew the truth already though. Your plans were with your new girlfriend. The one that seemed to be by your side every moment of the day, the one that hated me. I wasn't going to let your girlfriend get in my way of being best friends with you, not when we had so much going for us as best friends. Not when everything was returning to normal.
'This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh'
I didn't want you to see me cry that night. I just couldn't help it. Seeing you with her in that same place we used to go. Seeing you with her, and actually looking as if your eyes glowed in appreciation..and happiness. You saw me. I know you did. You looked right at me, and didn't even seem the least bit concerned. You were happy with her, I know you were. And yet, she wasn't right for you. Not one bit. She talked about you to her friends. I overheard the conversation.
"So, you only want her for?" One of the girls asked.
"That's simple. Money, sex, support.."
That was enough to make me want to strangle her. But I didn't. I held in my feelings. Only because she made you happy.
'But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible'
I wanted to run to you. To tell you what she did. To confess my feelings to you. To hopefully return to that realationship we once had, but then again, I knew it was impossible. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I couldn't even bring myself to say your name without one of my friends asking me if I was alright. Once I was sitting in class and my friend just started talking, about you, about me, about life.
"You shouldn't let that whore into your life anymore. Just stop talking to her completly. Your just hurting yourself, ya know. Just tell her what happened with her fugly girlfriend and it'll all stop hurting.."
I slapped her and ran from the room crying. She hasn't talked to me since.
She wasn't right at all. It would never stop hurting.
'So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep'
My heart would never stop hurting. Why did everything have to be this way? Why did I want my heart to be yours forever? Why did I keep hurting myself over simple matters such as heartbreak?
I called you up on the phone that night. I hung up as soon as you said hello. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything. I just needed to hear your voice. We had actually stopped talking. Hadn't talked for a few months even. Ever since that day I saw you and your girlfriend together, I'd just been avoiding everyone. I was avoiding you at all costs; afraid that my feelings would make you unhappy.
That's when the dreams started again. The ones I used to have. The ones about you. Dying. Crying. The ones that were driving me into madness.
'Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find'
I never told you what happened in those dreams. I never told you anything anymore. But then, I wonder how you felt when you got the news that I killed myself? How did you feel then? Did you even cry? Did you even go to my funeral? Did my family react how I thought they would? How did your girlfriend react to what I typed up on my computer? How did my friends react? I wonder, but then again, I guess I'll never know.
Because ghost's can't use computers. Right?
--
Tell me what you think? <3
I really hate the ending. I'm really lame,
and couldn't come up with anything else.
Author: Caleighxo
Rating: I'll go with PG,
if anyone thinks otherwise tell me.
Length: Oneshot
Warnings: They're all female characters, so it's basically a yuri. [without any simple yuri things]
Pairings: There aren't any names in this.
But they're all female characters.
Band: No characters in here are from a band, unless you'd like to think they are. The song used for inspiration is Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade.
Disclaimer: I own everything in this, because it's basically about my life. I just call it a fanfiction because I didn't want my ex to know it was about us.
Summary: After my girlfriend broke up with me, this is what happened. I overexagerated on some things though.
*You have to look out for the lyrics to the actual song, because I'm lame and can't figure out how to italicize them.
'The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core'
We hardly ever fought. A few arguments here and there, sure, but it made us stronger as a couple. I guess it prepared me for the worst.
Our fight. Our last fight. The fight that broke us apart. The fight that no longer allowed me to express my true feelings towards you; a fight that meant never saying those three words that I still wish to say.
You just didn't love me anymore, it was that simple.
And yet, I seem to have a habit of turning the most simple things into the worst possible situations.
'But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find'
You were always so perfect, even though you thought you weren't. You were my role model, the person that I wanted to be like. You were just so amazing. I actually had the nerve to call you and ask you what you were doing that weekend.
And you replyed, "I have plans." I knew the truth already though. Your plans were with your new girlfriend. The one that seemed to be by your side every moment of the day, the one that hated me. I wasn't going to let your girlfriend get in my way of being best friends with you, not when we had so much going for us as best friends. Not when everything was returning to normal.
'This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh'
I didn't want you to see me cry that night. I just couldn't help it. Seeing you with her in that same place we used to go. Seeing you with her, and actually looking as if your eyes glowed in appreciation..and happiness. You saw me. I know you did. You looked right at me, and didn't even seem the least bit concerned. You were happy with her, I know you were. And yet, she wasn't right for you. Not one bit. She talked about you to her friends. I overheard the conversation.
"So, you only want her for?" One of the girls asked.
"That's simple. Money, sex, support.."
That was enough to make me want to strangle her. But I didn't. I held in my feelings. Only because she made you happy.
'But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible'
I wanted to run to you. To tell you what she did. To confess my feelings to you. To hopefully return to that realationship we once had, but then again, I knew it was impossible. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I couldn't even bring myself to say your name without one of my friends asking me if I was alright. Once I was sitting in class and my friend just started talking, about you, about me, about life.
"You shouldn't let that whore into your life anymore. Just stop talking to her completly. Your just hurting yourself, ya know. Just tell her what happened with her fugly girlfriend and it'll all stop hurting.."
I slapped her and ran from the room crying. She hasn't talked to me since.
She wasn't right at all. It would never stop hurting.
'So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep'
My heart would never stop hurting. Why did everything have to be this way? Why did I want my heart to be yours forever? Why did I keep hurting myself over simple matters such as heartbreak?
I called you up on the phone that night. I hung up as soon as you said hello. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything. I just needed to hear your voice. We had actually stopped talking. Hadn't talked for a few months even. Ever since that day I saw you and your girlfriend together, I'd just been avoiding everyone. I was avoiding you at all costs; afraid that my feelings would make you unhappy.
That's when the dreams started again. The ones I used to have. The ones about you. Dying. Crying. The ones that were driving me into madness.
'Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find'
I never told you what happened in those dreams. I never told you anything anymore. But then, I wonder how you felt when you got the news that I killed myself? How did you feel then? Did you even cry? Did you even go to my funeral? Did my family react how I thought they would? How did your girlfriend react to what I typed up on my computer? How did my friends react? I wonder, but then again, I guess I'll never know.
Because ghost's can't use computers. Right?
--
Tell me what you think? <3
I really hate the ending. I'm really lame,
and couldn't come up with anything else.