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Okay we've had some changes to our team in the past few days. One of my teammates, David, got kicked out for underage drinking. And then today I found out that my TL Brittany is leaving due to health reasons.
I felt a lot of emotions when I found that out about Brittany. To everyone on the team I seemed kind of out of it, which I was, but I was out of it because I was thinking and trying to process so many things all at once.
I had mixed feeling about Brittany. Sometimes I liked her and sometimes I didn't. I was thinking today that I didn't like her because she corrected my grammar in front of the whole group. One of the girls asked me if I wanted some gum, and I said "Yeah". And then Brittany looked at me and said "Yes, Please", which really pissed me off. Do not correct me in front of others, that is my big thing and I have tried to put that across delicately. I feel kind of guilty now because I had bad feelings towards her and now she's leaving. I'm going to go make her a bracelet tonight.
We've had a lot of training this week. Monday was media training, Tuesday was diversity training, yesterday was life after Americorps training and today was red cross training. I was happy at red cross training because I got mostly 100's on the tests and I got my PB and J on wheat bread. I love wheat bread.
After talking to Sam the counselar yesterday I came to some conclusions. I reacted strongly yesterday during training whenever all of my teammates were all gung ho about trying to do all of our Independent Service Hours together. I was like, "uh, no". And I told my team that I didn't want to do everything with them.
But after talking to Sam, I figured out that because I want to work with autistic kids, I want to do that by myself. And I want to do that by myself because I don't want my teammates to see how I used to be and pass judgement on me. Not only that, I want to have some time to myself and have some things of my own.
I felt a lot of emotions when I found that out about Brittany. To everyone on the team I seemed kind of out of it, which I was, but I was out of it because I was thinking and trying to process so many things all at once.
I had mixed feeling about Brittany. Sometimes I liked her and sometimes I didn't. I was thinking today that I didn't like her because she corrected my grammar in front of the whole group. One of the girls asked me if I wanted some gum, and I said "Yeah". And then Brittany looked at me and said "Yes, Please", which really pissed me off. Do not correct me in front of others, that is my big thing and I have tried to put that across delicately. I feel kind of guilty now because I had bad feelings towards her and now she's leaving. I'm going to go make her a bracelet tonight.
We've had a lot of training this week. Monday was media training, Tuesday was diversity training, yesterday was life after Americorps training and today was red cross training. I was happy at red cross training because I got mostly 100's on the tests and I got my PB and J on wheat bread. I love wheat bread.
After talking to Sam the counselar yesterday I came to some conclusions. I reacted strongly yesterday during training whenever all of my teammates were all gung ho about trying to do all of our Independent Service Hours together. I was like, "uh, no". And I told my team that I didn't want to do everything with them.
But after talking to Sam, I figured out that because I want to work with autistic kids, I want to do that by myself. And I want to do that by myself because I don't want my teammates to see how I used to be and pass judgement on me. Not only that, I want to have some time to myself and have some things of my own.