Life is...
Wow... this week has been something crazy, that's fo' sho'. Haha, I'm gangsta. Yeah .... Right. I'd shoot myself in the head before that ever happened.
Well, I made an ass out of myself over a guy... In front of our mutual friends, infront of his work. Oh well... I guess this is where we chalk it up to good times (or bad ones) and move on. You know whats really sad? I actually let myself fall in love for once.... The one time I do it, and what happens... I get a 3rd degree burn.... I guess that one's on me though... I mean c'mon, I atually trusted him. He cheated on me, lied to me about it, fucked a girl I know the night after he dumps me, and used me for money.
I should have listented to all my friends, they were right.... Haha, yeah, I said it Coe. You were right. Kyle was right. Everybody was. Matt was mostly right though. He predicted the evening that it happened that we'd break up. I guess I should have listented when everyone was whispering in my ears that it would never work out.
I guess Love is never enough.
doesn't matter though. I finally gave into a temptation thats been there for a while, since before I met Brandon.... I finally gave into Matt and what goodness it was.... The entire time we were in bed, I never had another thought in my head besides how good it felt to fuck someone else.
Too bad Matt didn't like it when I told him that we'd never get back together. He said, "You've used me like your ex used you." I thought about it for a minute, and I guess he was right. I did use him.... Used him for his body. It was wrong, but know what.... I feel 100 times much better.
Earlier in the evening I was bent on having a one night stand, but why take the risks with a stranger when I can fuck someone I know. He tried to talk me into dating again, but when he bought that up, I started to laugh my ass off. Like I'd ever do that again. I learned my lesson.... Men are to be used. If someone can do it to me, why cant I do it to them? Want to know why? Because I'm better than that. I came home crying tonight, not because of lost love, but because of how good it felt to be wanted.
Inside right now, I feel absloutley worthless. But on the outside, I'm pasting a smile on my face and getting on with life.
By the way, to the girl who fucked him, isn't it cute how when he's about to cum, he really starts playing with his tounge?
Or when he gets horny, that smile comes onto his face and his just light up? Yeah, I hope you enjoyed it. Because I know while he was fucking you, he was picturing me.
Well, I made an ass out of myself over a guy... In front of our mutual friends, infront of his work. Oh well... I guess this is where we chalk it up to good times (or bad ones) and move on. You know whats really sad? I actually let myself fall in love for once.... The one time I do it, and what happens... I get a 3rd degree burn.... I guess that one's on me though... I mean c'mon, I atually trusted him. He cheated on me, lied to me about it, fucked a girl I know the night after he dumps me, and used me for money.
I should have listented to all my friends, they were right.... Haha, yeah, I said it Coe. You were right. Kyle was right. Everybody was. Matt was mostly right though. He predicted the evening that it happened that we'd break up. I guess I should have listented when everyone was whispering in my ears that it would never work out.
I guess Love is never enough.
doesn't matter though. I finally gave into a temptation thats been there for a while, since before I met Brandon.... I finally gave into Matt and what goodness it was.... The entire time we were in bed, I never had another thought in my head besides how good it felt to fuck someone else.
Too bad Matt didn't like it when I told him that we'd never get back together. He said, "You've used me like your ex used you." I thought about it for a minute, and I guess he was right. I did use him.... Used him for his body. It was wrong, but know what.... I feel 100 times much better.
Earlier in the evening I was bent on having a one night stand, but why take the risks with a stranger when I can fuck someone I know. He tried to talk me into dating again, but when he bought that up, I started to laugh my ass off. Like I'd ever do that again. I learned my lesson.... Men are to be used. If someone can do it to me, why cant I do it to them? Want to know why? Because I'm better than that. I came home crying tonight, not because of lost love, but because of how good it felt to be wanted.
Inside right now, I feel absloutley worthless. But on the outside, I'm pasting a smile on my face and getting on with life.
By the way, to the girl who fucked him, isn't it cute how when he's about to cum, he really starts playing with his tounge?
Or when he gets horny, that smile comes onto his face and his just light up? Yeah, I hope you enjoyed it. Because I know while he was fucking you, he was picturing me.