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i dont know if im just sitting here stagnating wasting time, or if there is good reason to wait.
i am so completely impatient...i dont really know how to be patient with this. kids, okay whatever. teaching someone to board, yeah sure. but waiting for someone to make up their mind? i appear to be incapable.
i miss him. i just want to return to the normalcy, the happiness we had.
i give it up, God.
im trying hard to hand over the reins, but its difficult, and scary, and weird.
i dont necessarily want to give up doug, or i guess the idea of him. i dont want to want that. not yet. but i want to want to want to give up doug.
its too complicated, and my heart is too ensconced with him.
please rectify that. purify me.
i am so completely impatient...i dont really know how to be patient with this. kids, okay whatever. teaching someone to board, yeah sure. but waiting for someone to make up their mind? i appear to be incapable.
i miss him. i just want to return to the normalcy, the happiness we had.
i give it up, God.
im trying hard to hand over the reins, but its difficult, and scary, and weird.
i dont necessarily want to give up doug, or i guess the idea of him. i dont want to want that. not yet. but i want to want to want to give up doug.
its too complicated, and my heart is too ensconced with him.
please rectify that. purify me.