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Hello friends I do apologize for going so long without an update but life has been... life.
About a week after I last posted in January, I quit the interior design job. The stress was insane for a stupid admin assistant/personal assistant position, and I couldn't take the condescending dickery anymore. Did I mention he asked me to come along with him to one of the apartments to meet a contractor and then proceeded to rip the contractor a new asshole with me wandering around the apartment thinking oh god oh god so awkward THIS IS SO AWKWARD? Because that happened.
Living in New York City is hard. Living in New York City unemployed? Really fucking hard. These last few months have been internal panic central. The writing job has helped, but not enough. Very much not enough. That's... about as much as I'll sum things up there.
But... I did recently just get another job. Starbucks. It's Starbucks. Third time rehired back at Starbucks as a shift supervisor. HA HA HA. Oh life. But hey. Steady paycheck and health insurance coming my way in a few months, so I really shouldn't complain.
I was calling around stores for available positions that were NOT in the midtown area (because that was my first mistake after moving to NYC) and just so happened to call a store that was in desperate need of partners. Well, that's not how it was offered to me, but after working there for over two weeks, that's the obvious reason. I gave my spiel at the interview and the manager was excited and told me so, and hired me on right away. Turns out they were very short staffed, and on top of that, the manager has been on jury duty ever since I started so a) not only have I not worked with her yet but b) I haven't even been set up in the system yet. Which means I can't clock in, clock out, do managerial stats, open the safe, get paid, etc. But apparently she should be back in this week.
And so far the store seems much, MUCH better than where I was before (which was near Rockefeller Center, urgh.) Most if not all of the shift supervisors are REALLY on point with getting shit done and getting shit done right, which was a huge issue I had at the Rockefeller store. So... it feels okay so far. I had a shift last week where I thought I did a poor job of managing, but when the assistant manager and I looked at the numbers, we were above target, and he said I did a great job so... hopefully I can only go up from there!
Sometimes I think about how much of a failure I feel like for not getting a ~grownup job and doing ~grownup work, but... I think I'm slowly coming to the realization that, as much as I'd love to be known as Sarah: Assistant Editor or whatever, jobs don't make me happy. (Or maybe I've yet to find a job that truly makes me happy?) They're means to an end of earning money so that I can DO the things that make me happy. Like maybe spending money on traveling or hot air ballooning or an amazing dinner is valued more to me than having a high-payed salaried job that consumes my life. Does that make sense? Is that silly? I should probably just hand in my adult card now.
My sister just visited the city for the past few days. Just dropped her off at the airport this morning, in fact. I was wonderful, minus the fact that I couldn't get days scheduled off while she was here. So I've been going nonstop since Tuesday - work, tourist stuff, work work work, hanging out, tourist stuff, walking walking. But it was really really great. I've been missing my family more and more lately. Fortunately I scored very cheap tickets to go home over Easter weekend, which is only 3 weeks away.
Other notables:
- My 27th birthday is in 10 days. Urgh. I don't even know how to feel about that.
- Was very, very lucky to see an advanced screening of Captain America: Winter Soldier last week and it was AMAAAAZIIIIING. Myself and friends already have tickets to see a marathon of the first Captain America and then the second one right after. So very excited.
- We've had a shit-ton of snow this winter and it's amazing and I love it, but I am also very excited for spring and all the flowers and things to do outside!
Also, um, yes, I still watch SPN and FUCK ME I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE MARK OF CAIN STORYLINE WITH DEAN NOT ONLY BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY GETS AN ARC BUT BECAUSE IT PUSHES ALL THE RIGHT BUTTONS FOR MEEEE. I could do 3489302 backflips. DON'T FUCK IT UP, WRITERS.
About a week after I last posted in January, I quit the interior design job. The stress was insane for a stupid admin assistant/personal assistant position, and I couldn't take the condescending dickery anymore. Did I mention he asked me to come along with him to one of the apartments to meet a contractor and then proceeded to rip the contractor a new asshole with me wandering around the apartment thinking oh god oh god so awkward THIS IS SO AWKWARD? Because that happened.
Living in New York City is hard. Living in New York City unemployed? Really fucking hard. These last few months have been internal panic central. The writing job has helped, but not enough. Very much not enough. That's... about as much as I'll sum things up there.
But... I did recently just get another job. Starbucks. It's Starbucks. Third time rehired back at Starbucks as a shift supervisor. HA HA HA. Oh life. But hey. Steady paycheck and health insurance coming my way in a few months, so I really shouldn't complain.
I was calling around stores for available positions that were NOT in the midtown area (because that was my first mistake after moving to NYC) and just so happened to call a store that was in desperate need of partners. Well, that's not how it was offered to me, but after working there for over two weeks, that's the obvious reason. I gave my spiel at the interview and the manager was excited and told me so, and hired me on right away. Turns out they were very short staffed, and on top of that, the manager has been on jury duty ever since I started so a) not only have I not worked with her yet but b) I haven't even been set up in the system yet. Which means I can't clock in, clock out, do managerial stats, open the safe, get paid, etc. But apparently she should be back in this week.
And so far the store seems much, MUCH better than where I was before (which was near Rockefeller Center, urgh.) Most if not all of the shift supervisors are REALLY on point with getting shit done and getting shit done right, which was a huge issue I had at the Rockefeller store. So... it feels okay so far. I had a shift last week where I thought I did a poor job of managing, but when the assistant manager and I looked at the numbers, we were above target, and he said I did a great job so... hopefully I can only go up from there!
Sometimes I think about how much of a failure I feel like for not getting a ~grownup job and doing ~grownup work, but... I think I'm slowly coming to the realization that, as much as I'd love to be known as Sarah: Assistant Editor or whatever, jobs don't make me happy. (Or maybe I've yet to find a job that truly makes me happy?) They're means to an end of earning money so that I can DO the things that make me happy. Like maybe spending money on traveling or hot air ballooning or an amazing dinner is valued more to me than having a high-payed salaried job that consumes my life. Does that make sense? Is that silly? I should probably just hand in my adult card now.
My sister just visited the city for the past few days. Just dropped her off at the airport this morning, in fact. I was wonderful, minus the fact that I couldn't get days scheduled off while she was here. So I've been going nonstop since Tuesday - work, tourist stuff, work work work, hanging out, tourist stuff, walking walking. But it was really really great. I've been missing my family more and more lately. Fortunately I scored very cheap tickets to go home over Easter weekend, which is only 3 weeks away.
Other notables:
- My 27th birthday is in 10 days. Urgh. I don't even know how to feel about that.
- Was very, very lucky to see an advanced screening of Captain America: Winter Soldier last week and it was AMAAAAZIIIIING. Myself and friends already have tickets to see a marathon of the first Captain America and then the second one right after. So very excited.
- We've had a shit-ton of snow this winter and it's amazing and I love it, but I am also very excited for spring and all the flowers and things to do outside!
Also, um, yes, I still watch SPN and FUCK ME I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE MARK OF CAIN STORYLINE WITH DEAN NOT ONLY BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY GETS AN ARC BUT BECAUSE IT PUSHES ALL THE RIGHT BUTTONS FOR MEEEE. I could do 3489302 backflips. DON'T FUCK IT UP, WRITERS.