Inspired, as it were.
After reading Tyrel's post about change, I felt inspired to share my own views in respect to myself. Sure, it may not be original, however, I have found that through my own process of self-discovery there are certain things about myself I had once refused to acknowledge. I think that this is the case for most of us Devlin's (and, again, I use that moniker in place of my proper last name).
You see, as we change through the years there are certain fundamental aspects of our personalities that Devlin's stick to, holding onto them for dear life as if all existence hinged on them being there for some unforeseen future event. I believe that I have changed a great deal, particularly in the last year. I have become stronger in both mind and body, and my view of things has certainly shifted to accomadate for my innately selfish nature. I have shaken off the shackles that chained me to the ideals of others and come to my own conclusions on where I should take my life. Rather than allow the river of time to carry me I have picked up the oar and begun to as I wish through its current.
However, there are aspects of my inner self that have failed to evolve. Whether this is out of fear or spite I have not yet determined. Furthermore, I have been unable to decide whether these quirks and ideas are good or bad and in either case whether or not I want to attempt to change them.
All in all I suppose it is all a matter of perspective as are so many things in life. Many people try to paint everything in this world either black or white and expect the rest of the world to see it that way too. Do not look around at those near you, for you are just as guilty as any, and I can hardly lift myself above the blame as well. However, I do believe that I see things just a little clearer now in that I understand, at least in part, the perspective of others. As arrogant as that statement may sound, I have come to believe its truth and look to use that rare ability daily in all that I do. If anything, it has kept me sane and I think that it is the most beneficial change I have come to realize thus far.
So what does the future hold for me then if I can so clearly see my path now? Unfortunately, I have found that such sight has shown me the myriad complications and obstacles that have risen into place before me. However, as in all things, I shall soar above them, veer around them, or burrow under them if I must. It is what I have always done: changed and adapted to my situation so that I may keep a constant sense of myself, if only a small one.
And so end my ramblings for this day. Expect more to follow.
~Caern Devlin
You see, as we change through the years there are certain fundamental aspects of our personalities that Devlin's stick to, holding onto them for dear life as if all existence hinged on them being there for some unforeseen future event. I believe that I have changed a great deal, particularly in the last year. I have become stronger in both mind and body, and my view of things has certainly shifted to accomadate for my innately selfish nature. I have shaken off the shackles that chained me to the ideals of others and come to my own conclusions on where I should take my life. Rather than allow the river of time to carry me I have picked up the oar and begun to as I wish through its current.
However, there are aspects of my inner self that have failed to evolve. Whether this is out of fear or spite I have not yet determined. Furthermore, I have been unable to decide whether these quirks and ideas are good or bad and in either case whether or not I want to attempt to change them.
All in all I suppose it is all a matter of perspective as are so many things in life. Many people try to paint everything in this world either black or white and expect the rest of the world to see it that way too. Do not look around at those near you, for you are just as guilty as any, and I can hardly lift myself above the blame as well. However, I do believe that I see things just a little clearer now in that I understand, at least in part, the perspective of others. As arrogant as that statement may sound, I have come to believe its truth and look to use that rare ability daily in all that I do. If anything, it has kept me sane and I think that it is the most beneficial change I have come to realize thus far.
So what does the future hold for me then if I can so clearly see my path now? Unfortunately, I have found that such sight has shown me the myriad complications and obstacles that have risen into place before me. However, as in all things, I shall soar above them, veer around them, or burrow under them if I must. It is what I have always done: changed and adapted to my situation so that I may keep a constant sense of myself, if only a small one.
And so end my ramblings for this day. Expect more to follow.
~Caern Devlin