these last few weeks have made me realize ( Read more... )

my body is tired. it feels like it is dying. some combination of food poisoning and insomnia and an accelerated heart rate since last sunday.

i can't spell. my brains are mashed potatoes.
i feel changed.
my outlook feels completely other. different.

i think if i died tomorrow, i would die with a shit eating grin on my face.

cheated out of winter
it is what it is
fast easter
no fruit

i'm alcatraz
passing through
this side/that side

drive facefirst
into the sun
i guess at lights and

obstacles.

familiar random strange

maybe the machinations.

[so burned out. so needs to sleep. work/work/dancing/work/date/?/rehersal/dinner.]

sins of the flesh
so hard to come by.