the waiting.
done work in half an hour.
phones are quiet.
numbers easier with repetition.
i'm feeling more confident.
two extra large, cream only,
fidget/twitch.
so much for having a nap when i get home. at midnight i turn into a pumpkin and crash. so much for planning ahead.
so excited for tonight,
waiting for the day to be over so i can buy some cloves and drive and go home and get ready and see him.
mind and body spiral into warmth,
and we haven't even gone there yet.
it feels like weeks but it's only been a couple days. waiting is the most difficult, then it's over, and it's the end of the night. and i settle into the warmth of my inner monologue, and i linger in remembered sensations.
utter disbelief. bewilderment. but a total sense of calm mingled in with it. all or nothing. i can deal with that.
thinking black and red for the evening. squee.
phones are quiet.
numbers easier with repetition.
i'm feeling more confident.
two extra large, cream only,
fidget/twitch.
so much for having a nap when i get home. at midnight i turn into a pumpkin and crash. so much for planning ahead.
so excited for tonight,
waiting for the day to be over so i can buy some cloves and drive and go home and get ready and see him.
mind and body spiral into warmth,
and we haven't even gone there yet.
it feels like weeks but it's only been a couple days. waiting is the most difficult, then it's over, and it's the end of the night. and i settle into the warmth of my inner monologue, and i linger in remembered sensations.
utter disbelief. bewilderment. but a total sense of calm mingled in with it. all or nothing. i can deal with that.
thinking black and red for the evening. squee.