down with obama (kinda)
I just heard that as things stand right now, Hillary is up like almost 1100 votes in New Mexico. They still have like 1700 provisional ballots to count, but it doesn't look like Obama is going to make it. That cheers me up ever so slightly, especially after being harassed by the Obama crowd @ UNM yesterday, which pissed me the fuck off let me tell you what. The booth was set up on behalf of unm college democrats, but after hearing that i was supporting hillary the kids there scowled and told me i might as well be voting for mccain -- what the fuck? if i hadn't of been late for my class i wouldn't started some serious shit, it angered me so much! arent they supposed to support the democratic party in general? since when does the party itself take sides on a primary? i like most of obamas policies, i really do, but this is just another reminder what i dont want to support his crowd for the election. excitement and idealism are nice and all, but lets enter the real world here...
im just ranting here. im re-reading over what i just wrote and now i feel mean, i think i'm taking out my problems with life on barack obama and his supporters. but oh well.
things with me and aaron are really weird. we spent all of yesterday crying at each other and separating all of our shit, and then out of nowhere aaron kissed me and we just instantly started ripping each others clothes off and jumped straight into bed. he literally kissed me and i just burst into tears, i didnt know what to do. or how to react. but i didn't stop it...
and so now things are even more weird. sleeping with aaron was exactly what i wanted at the time but afterwards we both just kind of sat there like "what the fuck?" (no pun intended.) i dont think either of us knows why we did it, but we're trying to put it behind us. in a weird way it kind of helped, i think it hurts us both to be acting like we hate each other and have no relationship when 2 weeks ago we were still planning on moving in together. but we also cant just go back to how things were. we've both been through an emotional rollercoaster, and acting like nothing happened is (i think) far from the best thing to do.
i applied at a couple new places this week, im eager to find a new job.
i cant afford gas and parking tonight, so i have to ditch my film class. :( i need money! i'm overdrawn and have no gas or cash, i'm horrible at budgeting.
i should go do something productive..
im just ranting here. im re-reading over what i just wrote and now i feel mean, i think i'm taking out my problems with life on barack obama and his supporters. but oh well.
things with me and aaron are really weird. we spent all of yesterday crying at each other and separating all of our shit, and then out of nowhere aaron kissed me and we just instantly started ripping each others clothes off and jumped straight into bed. he literally kissed me and i just burst into tears, i didnt know what to do. or how to react. but i didn't stop it...
and so now things are even more weird. sleeping with aaron was exactly what i wanted at the time but afterwards we both just kind of sat there like "what the fuck?" (no pun intended.) i dont think either of us knows why we did it, but we're trying to put it behind us. in a weird way it kind of helped, i think it hurts us both to be acting like we hate each other and have no relationship when 2 weeks ago we were still planning on moving in together. but we also cant just go back to how things were. we've both been through an emotional rollercoaster, and acting like nothing happened is (i think) far from the best thing to do.
i applied at a couple new places this week, im eager to find a new job.
i cant afford gas and parking tonight, so i have to ditch my film class. :( i need money! i'm overdrawn and have no gas or cash, i'm horrible at budgeting.
i should go do something productive..