A minor disclaimer.
I am in a truly amazing amount of pain.
While I can stand up (which means my back isn't fully out -- when it gets really bad, I can't roll over without help, much less stand, dress myself, and make the trip from my house to the office), sit down, and perform simple tasks, they hurt. Everything hurts. Standing, sitting, holding still, moving, lying down, everything. My lower back is a constant, numbing ache, which has helpfully spread the wealth by moving down into my hips and upper thighs. Sudden movements and anything that causes me to tense up create a new wealth of sensations. None of these sensations are good ones.
I am normally a very active person. I work out on a daily or semi-daily basis, I walk between two and four miles every day, and I sort of bound from point A to point B, just because I can. I rejoice in discovering new routes and that I can run from here to there without getting winded. And right now, I'm watching my soda consumption because I don't want to cope with trying to get to the bathroom.
I'm attempting to navigate the twists and turns of my medical insurance to get to a doctor for the MRI my usual body worker says I really need, but I'm not accustomed to dealing with chronic pain, and I'm not coping overly well. Please, if I seem snappy or out of sorts, believe me when I say it's probably me, not you. Unless you're taking an admission of weakness on my part as a good reason to taunt the sickly animal, in which case, it's you, not me, and I will bite your fingers off.
Please be gentle with me?
Thank you.
While I can stand up (which means my back isn't fully out -- when it gets really bad, I can't roll over without help, much less stand, dress myself, and make the trip from my house to the office), sit down, and perform simple tasks, they hurt. Everything hurts. Standing, sitting, holding still, moving, lying down, everything. My lower back is a constant, numbing ache, which has helpfully spread the wealth by moving down into my hips and upper thighs. Sudden movements and anything that causes me to tense up create a new wealth of sensations. None of these sensations are good ones.
I am normally a very active person. I work out on a daily or semi-daily basis, I walk between two and four miles every day, and I sort of bound from point A to point B, just because I can. I rejoice in discovering new routes and that I can run from here to there without getting winded. And right now, I'm watching my soda consumption because I don't want to cope with trying to get to the bathroom.
I'm attempting to navigate the twists and turns of my medical insurance to get to a doctor for the MRI my usual body worker says I really need, but I'm not accustomed to dealing with chronic pain, and I'm not coping overly well. Please, if I seem snappy or out of sorts, believe me when I say it's probably me, not you. Unless you're taking an admission of weakness on my part as a good reason to taunt the sickly animal, in which case, it's you, not me, and I will bite your fingers off.
Please be gentle with me?
Thank you.