Things are better
So I'm in school full time and am also working full time, as one does, and for a while, especially at the beginning of the semester, I'm all like "rawr. I am woman. See me take on all these paltry things that are challenging me. See me laugh at the ease of defeating them." Then, much like Allie, I decide I have won and now deserve a break.
This generally happens about 4 to 5 weeks into the semester. From that point on it's pretty much down hill from there. I decide not to do the stuff and it piles up and then I can't do any of it because I'm mentally so overloaded and it's just a hot mess, emphasis on the mess. Then 3 weeks before semester ends, I have to dig myself out of the mountain of stuff I have to do in order to pass classes.
I really need to stop doing this.
I'm in the "digging myself out of the mess" portion of the semester and I'm 1/3 of the way done. This is a huge improvement over two days ago when I wasn't even 1/1000 of the way done. I've just got to get the last 2 projects done and turn them in on Monday and I can collapse and sleep for a million years.
But beyond that, the psychological affects of turning in one of my projects and finding out that I got an A on it has really motivated me to keep at it. I have been super worried and slightly depressed about graduating for some undefinable reason, but after getting that A and slashing my workload by a third, I just feel so much better about graduating. I don't know why or how, but I'm gonna ride this feeling as long as it lasts.
Things are better.
This generally happens about 4 to 5 weeks into the semester. From that point on it's pretty much down hill from there. I decide not to do the stuff and it piles up and then I can't do any of it because I'm mentally so overloaded and it's just a hot mess, emphasis on the mess. Then 3 weeks before semester ends, I have to dig myself out of the mountain of stuff I have to do in order to pass classes.
I really need to stop doing this.
I'm in the "digging myself out of the mess" portion of the semester and I'm 1/3 of the way done. This is a huge improvement over two days ago when I wasn't even 1/1000 of the way done. I've just got to get the last 2 projects done and turn them in on Monday and I can collapse and sleep for a million years.
But beyond that, the psychological affects of turning in one of my projects and finding out that I got an A on it has really motivated me to keep at it. I have been super worried and slightly depressed about graduating for some undefinable reason, but after getting that A and slashing my workload by a third, I just feel so much better about graduating. I don't know why or how, but I'm gonna ride this feeling as long as it lasts.
Things are better.