Only a month into my senior year and....
I am really excited to finally have a break from school in two weeks. I'm starting to get frustrated with classes, as is usual after the first month or so of school. I started off really well this semester, and then everything gets harder. I think getting one meteocre homework back (where i went to his office hours for help on it) just kinda made me start thinking about everything else. Even though I know on a lot of the other hw's i'm not doing so hot on, no one is either, it doesn't stop me from being hard on myself about it. I'm frustrated that I have to take 35 credits this year (17 this semester and 18 next semester) to graduate. I'm scared I won't have a job by the time i graduate (I know, I know its still early, but it's something I worry about). I'm scared my schedule next semester is going to get messed up because i have to take 2 junior-level classes that most seniors have already taken, and if i can't take them or it conflicts with things i need for senior year, I will be here another whole year. I'm worried that after all my hard work, I am going to screw up majorly in one of my classes right in the home stretch. i don't know, it's just one thing after another lately. Probably why I'm not sleeping so well too (which also may be a slight cause of this present state - lack of sleep tends to overemphasize the wrong things).
I wonder if sometimes my parents were right and I should have just tried to do it in 5 years, instead of cramming everything into 4. It's a little late now to be thinking about that, unless I fail a class or something. Who knows what's gonna happen...
I wonder if sometimes my parents were right and I should have just tried to do it in 5 years, instead of cramming everything into 4. It's a little late now to be thinking about that, unless I fail a class or something. Who knows what's gonna happen...