One More Friend Gone
So I just came to an unwelcome revelation today. Mel deleted me from Myspace. Now, I know that this may sound juvenile, but I am really upset about this.
I am pissed at her for many reasons, some dealing with Largo, some dealing with other things. But don't for one second believe that I don't consider her my friend. I'm pissed because I care. Because I see her doing things that only hurt her and the people she cares about. Man, I know that it's not my job to go aroud saving people, but this is the last thing I wanted.
I remember how when I got back from Los Alamos this summer, she was one of the few people who seemed genuinely glad to see me. I remember her using duct tape and a trashbag to try and keep her cast dry when we were in Troy's pool. I remember the Portales Fountain Dare. I know I haven't been the best friend to her lately. I had to be her director, and that was at the moment more important. But now I've lost another friend.
It just seems that I am getting on everyone's nerves these days. Why can't I just get things right in my life? Relationships, school, friends...everything's an ungodly mess and I don't know how to fix it.
I know what I want. I want to feel needed. It may be selfish, but it's true. I want to feel needed. But it's like everyone I know has someone more important to them. My friends mean so much to me. I don't want to lose any more of them.
I am pissed at her for many reasons, some dealing with Largo, some dealing with other things. But don't for one second believe that I don't consider her my friend. I'm pissed because I care. Because I see her doing things that only hurt her and the people she cares about. Man, I know that it's not my job to go aroud saving people, but this is the last thing I wanted.
I remember how when I got back from Los Alamos this summer, she was one of the few people who seemed genuinely glad to see me. I remember her using duct tape and a trashbag to try and keep her cast dry when we were in Troy's pool. I remember the Portales Fountain Dare. I know I haven't been the best friend to her lately. I had to be her director, and that was at the moment more important. But now I've lost another friend.
It just seems that I am getting on everyone's nerves these days. Why can't I just get things right in my life? Relationships, school, friends...everything's an ungodly mess and I don't know how to fix it.
I know what I want. I want to feel needed. It may be selfish, but it's true. I want to feel needed. But it's like everyone I know has someone more important to them. My friends mean so much to me. I don't want to lose any more of them.