Someday there'll be a cure pain, that's the day I'll throw my drugs away
This is the happiest day of my life! I finally identified the name of this song below! I have been trying to find out who did it for years! It's Sugar Water by Cibo Matto. It's AWESOME!
Cibo Matto- Sugar Water [PV]
Ok, it's still gonna take me a second to stop gushing over my love for that song. Ok, I'm back.
So I realized I'm ready to destroy my life again and rebuild it. I'm so bored, I need to find something new to "fight" for. I'm dealing with some family tragedies and on top of that I'm reading the biography of the famous author of The Rape of Nanking, Iris Chang. During my difficulties with my family, I should really avoid reading about Iris Chang. Not only is her career noted for bringing to light one of the most brutal moments in history next to the holocaust, she committed suicide 5 years ago. In another words, I should not be reading a book about the suicide of another "creator" for fear of copying it. Also, ever since I started reading about the Nanking massacre, my whole perception of a "nation" became skewed. Particularly a moral nation. It seems every country has some seriously dark skeletons. Despite the efforts of trying to be a good nation, how often should a country revisit it's terrible mistakes? At what point does the blame game end? I feel terrible for what happened to China in WWII but I can't help but feel even more terrible by how China treated its own people during the cultural revolution. every country has this hypocritical scenarios.
Anyways, back to changing my game plan, I'm thinking of trying a few new things:
-tutoring ESL students. This would be good, casual practice for me for when I actually go overseas to teach.
-becoming a server. I have never served in a restaurant and never wanted to but seeing Chicago for some reason got me interested in trying.
-wearing a blue wig. I bought a blue wig and I'm thinking of incorporating it into my daily routines (i.e. wearing it to the store, etc.)
-I think it's time for a new art show! Lately I have been drawing a lot of nudity, I think I should suck up my courage and do a bunch of paintings similar to that. I feel weird about painting fictional nudity but I'm so tired of seeing other artists draw either a) boring nudity, or b) clearly pornographic nudity. There's like no inbetween so I am determined to find that middle ground.
Did I mention I bought a BLUE WIG! How fun!
-Jas 詹斯